And once sitting with her under the lamp in the evening, he drew again
that sense of peace that had come in the queer darkness on the deck of
the _Jade_. It had to do with the mountains--as if they had finished
with the valleys, and were ascending together in the strong light of
the mountains.
And then there was passion--that plain, straight earth drive. Bellair
was strange about this with the Faraway Woman. This passion was like
the return of an old hunting companion, so natural in the wilds, but
strange and out of place in his newly-ordered life. It had come from
the Unknowable, and he had supposed it lost in that wilderness. It
dismayed him that _she_ should call it forth, but she called from him
everything day by day, and no day the same. He had lost much of the
old, but not that passion. And the nature of it which she called had
a bewildering beauty.... But there was much to keep the old native of
the wilds from really entering. The world would have called Bellair’s
idealism _naïve_; and there was something of Fleury in the very
solution of their lives--not a finger-print of passion in all that
relation. There was the Unfinished Story of Ogla’s Guest. Finally there
was the Gleam.
Life was very full and rare to Bellair, but there seemed always a new
ship in the harbour flying Blue Peter for California.... In the main,
they forgot themselves, as unwatched man and woman, slept under the
same roof and had their food together; at least, Bellair forgot it for
hours at a time. It seemed the very nature of life; the purity of it
all so obvious.... One afternoon he came up from the city in a cool
south wind; a grey afternoon, the sunset watery and lemon-hued. He was
thinking of the ship that would float Blue Peter to-morrow. The homely
scent of damp bark burning quickened his senses, as he crossed the
yard, and he heard her singing to the child. Somehow the woodsmoke had
brought back to him a Spring day in the northern woods--grey light and
dark pools, all foliage baby-new, a song-sparrow pair trilling back and
forth from edge to open....
He saw her in one of the rare flashes of life. She was sitting by the
fireplace, the nearest window across the room. Her figure was softened
in the deep grey light to the pure sensousness of motherhood--except
her face, hands and boots, and that which she held. These were mellowed
in the faintest orange glow from the firelight. Her back was curved
forward, her face bent to the baby’s head, held high in the hollow of
her arms. The dress was caught tightly about her ankles--a covering
pliant almost as a night-robe, but that was a mystery of the shadows.
She was like the figure of some woman he had seen somewhere--some woman
of the river-banks, but this a Madonna of the firelight. He passed on,
and waited before speaking.
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