They went a last time to the city.... There was a place for a chair,
and they had seen an old urn in a by-street which belonged near the
Spring. They felt that these products of men had to be just so, and
that they had earned a great boon in being given a part at stone
cottage. The things that were brought there must endure; must reason
together in long leisure concord, putting on the same inner hue at the
last and mellowing together as old friends, or old mates. This time,
Bellair’s eyes did not meet the city quite as before; it was not as
a stranger exactly, who rambles through a port while his ship lies
in the offing. His real berth was an hour’s ride back from the city
and made of stone. Perhaps later he would find work to do here.... A
child passed them in the store, and brought the change after their
purchase--a boy of twelve or fourteen, his face old with care. It made
Bellair think of Davy Acton at Lot & Company’s. They bought a bit of
glass, a bit of silver, some linen and a rug, and rode home with their
arms full.
Another letter had come from one of the Island headquarters of
Stackhouse, in answer to Bellair’s inquiry concerning affairs. The
papers in the wallet had given him clues to the various insular
interests; and the replies, without exception, represented the
attitudes of agents ready and open to authority from without.
Stackhouse had left no centre of force that appeared to have vitality
enough to rise in its own responsibility. Bellair saw that sooner or
later he must make a visit to these different interests, and that
the place of the wallet for the time being, at least, amounted
to headquarters. He wrote as explicitly as possible in reply to
the letters, promised to call in due course, established a freedom
where his judgment permitted, but felt the whole vast business very
loosely in hand. New York was first, and it became very clear to him,
especially on this night, that New York must be entered upon without
further delay. There was a thrill of dismay in the thought of the weeks
that had passed, and the dreaming. Dreams were good. He had needed
these days; great adjustments and healings had taken place. It had
been the pleasant lull between the old and new, the only rest his life
had known, in fact. All its beauty was massed into the period--but the
dreams must be turned into action now.
A man may stay just so long in joy. There are moments in every life
when the hour strikes for parting. The lover does well to leave his
lady then quickly. There is an understanding in the world that the
woman invariably whispers, _Stay_, but very often an organisation of
force that makes austerity possible, does not come from the man alone.
If the moment of parting passes, the two still lingering together, a
shadow enters between them, blurring their faces for each other’s eyes,
dimming the dream.
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