_My page is ill, and I am oblig’d to trust_ Brilliard _with these to the dear cottage of their rendezvous; send me your opinion of his fidelity: and ah! remember I die to see you_. _To_ PHILANDER. Not yet?--not yet? oh ye dull tedious hours, when will you glide away? and bring that happy moment on, in which I shall at least hear from my _Philander_; eight and forty tedious ones are past, and I am here forgotten still; forlorn, impatient, restless every where; not one of all your little moments (ye undiverting hours) can afford me repose; I drag ye on, a heavy load; I count ye all, and bless ye when you are gone; but tremble at the approaching ones, and with a dread expect you; and nothing will divert me now; my couch is tiresome, my glass is vain; my books are dull, and conversation insupportable; the grove affords me no relief; nor even those birds to whom I have so often breath’d _Philander_’., name, they sing it on their perching boughs; no, nor the reviewing of his dear letters, can bring me any ease. Oh what fate is reserved for me! For thus I cannot live; nor surely thus I shall not die. Perhaps _Philander_’. making a trial of virtue by this silence. Pursue it, call up all your reason, my lovely brother, to your aid, let us be wise and silent, let us try what that will do towards the cure of this too infectious flame; let us, oh let us, my brother, sit down here, and pursue the crime of loving on no farther. Call me sister--swear I am so, and nothing but your sister: and forbear, oh forbear, my charming brother, to pursue me farther with your soft bewitching passion; let me alone, let me be ruin’d with honour, if I must be ruin’d.--For oh! ‘twere much happier I were no more, than that I should be more than _Philander_’. sister; or he than _Sylvia_’. brother: oh let me ever call you by that cold name, ‘till that of lover be forgotten:--ha!--Methinks on the sudden, a fit of virtue informs my soul, and bids me ask you for what sin of mine, my charming brother, you still pursue a maid that cannot fly: ungenerous and unkind! Why did you take advantage of those freedoms I gave you as a brother? I smil’d on you; and sometimes kiss’d you too;--but for my sister’s sake, I play’d with you, suffer’d your hands and lips to wander where I dare not now; all which I thought a sister might allow a brother, and knew not all the while the treachery of love: oh none, but under that intimate title of a brother, could have had the opportunity to have ruin’d me; that, that betray’d me; I play’d away my heart at a game I did not understand; nor knew I when ‘twas lost, by degrees so subtle, and an authority so lawful, you won me out of all. Nay then too, even when all was lost, I would not think it love. I wonder’d what my sleepless nights, my waking eternal thoughts, and slumbering visions of my lovely brother meant: I wonder’d why my soul was continually fill’d with wishes and new desires; and still