Meantime, of course, Thyrsis was hearing from these great men of
letters. When he counted up at the end he found that he had received
replies from sixteen of them; whether the other eighty-four received
his book, or what they did with it, he never knew. Of these sixteen,
six wrote formal acknowledgements, and two others said that they found
nothing to appeal to them in his book; so there were left eight who gave
him comfort, Several of these were among the really vital men of the
time, as Thyrsis found out later, when he came to read their books, and
to know them as something other than newspaper names. Several of them
wrote him long and really helpful criticisms of his work, recognizing
the merits he knew it had, and pointing out defects which he was quick
to acknowledge. Four of them even told him that he had undoubted genius,
and predicted great things for him. But that was as far as any of them
went. They wrote their opinions, and there they stopped, as if at a
blank wall. No one among them seemed to feel that he could take any
action upon his opinion, however favorable; not one comprehended that
what the boy was groping for was neither praise nor blame, but a chance
for life. Not one had any advice of a practical sort to offer; not one
had any personal or human thing to say; not one even asked to see him!
And lest this should be due to oversight, or to false delicacy, Thyrsis
wrote, in his desperation, and reminded them that the “genius” they
recognized was being killed by starvation. To this, one did not reply,
and another advised him to take up newspaper work, as “a means of
getting in touch with the public”!
It was a ghastly thing to the boy as he came to realize it--this utter
deadness and coldness of “the world”. Thyrsis himself was all afire
with love--with love, not only for his vision and his art, but for all
humanity, and for humanity’s noblest dreams. His friends were poets and
sages of past time, men of generous faith and quick sympathies; and in
all the world of the living, was there not one such man to be found? Was
there nothing left upon earth but critical discernment and epistolary
politeness?
The question pursued him still more, after the one interview which
resulted from all this correspondence. There was a distinguished Harvard
professor who had told him that he had rare powers and must go on; and
hearing that the professor was in New York, Thyrsis asked the privilege
of calling.
It was in one of the city’s most expensive hotels--for the professor had
married a rich wife, and was what people called “socially prominent”.
The other did not know this; but it seemed an awful thing to him that
anyone should be sitting in a brocaded silk-covered chair in a palace of
luxury like this, while possessed of the knowledge that his genius was
starving.
“You tell me to go on, professor,” he said. “But how _can_ I go on?”
The professor was fingering his gold eyeglasses and studying his
visitor.
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