So Corydon recited in a low voice a couple of stanzas which had come to
her in the lonely midnight hours. Thyrsis listened with interest--he had
never heard them before:
“What matters the tired heart,
What matters the weary brain?
What matters the cruel smart
Of the burden borne again?
I was sick with the Nay of life--
With my lonely soul’s refrain;
But the essence of love is strife,
And the meaning of life is pain.”
There was a pause. “Do you--do you think that is worth while at all?”
asked Corydon.
“It is evidently sincere,” replied Mrs. Channing. “I think you ought to
study and practice.”
“I can’t make much effort at it--”
But the other went on: “What concerns me is the attitude to life it
shows. It is terrible that a young girl should feel that way. You must
not let yourself get into such a state!”
“But how can I help it?”
“You must have something that occupies your mind! That is what you need,
truly it is! You’ve got to stop thinking about yourself--you’ve got to
get outside yourself, somehow!”
Thyrsis caught his breath. He could tell from the tone of the speaker’s
voice that she was laboring with Corydon, putting forth all her energies
to impress her. He was tempted to step forward and cry out, “No, no!
That’s not the way! That won’t work!”
But instead, he stood rooted to the spot, while Mrs. Channing went
on--“This unhappiness comes from the fact that you are so self-centred.
You must get some constructive work, my dear, if it’s only training your
baby. You must realize that you are not the only person who has troubles
in the world. Why, I know a poor washerwoman, who was left a widow with
four children to care for--”
And then suddenly Thyrsis heard a voice cry out in anguish, “Oh, oh!
stop!” He heard his wife spring up from her chair.
“What’s the matter?” asked Mrs. Channing.
“I can’t listen to you any more!” cried Corydon. “You don’t know what
you’re saying!--You don’t understand me at all!”
There was a pause. “I’m sorry you feel that,” said Mrs. Channing.
“I had no right to talk to you!” exclaimed the other. “There’s no one
can understand! I have to fight alone!”
At this point Thyrsis went into the kitchen, and made some noise that
they would hear. Then he called, “Are you there, dearest?”
“Yes,” said Corydon; and he went out upon the piazza. He saw her
standing, white and tense.
“Are you still talking?” he said, with forced carelessness.
And as Mrs. Channing answered “Yes,” Corydon said, quickly, “Excuse me a
moment,” and went into the house.
So the poet sat and talked with his guest about the state of the weather
and the condition of the roads; until at last her husband arrived,
saying that it was time they were starting. Corydon did not appear
again, and so finally Thyrsis accompanied them out to their car, and saw
them start off. They promised to come again, but he knew they would not
keep that promise.
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