Channing said that he did not object to that.
“Very well, then,” said Thyrsis. “I simply tell you that you have missed
the point of my trouble. There’s nothing the matter with me but poverty
and lack of opportunity; and there’s nothing else the matter with my
wife. We’re doing our best, and it’s the simple fact that we’ve endured
and dared more than anybody we’ve ever met. And that’s all there is to
it.”
It was evident that Channing was deeply hurt. He turned the conversation
to other matters, and pretty soon they got up and strolled on. When they
came near to the house, he went off to see his chauffeur, and Thyrsis
stood watching him, and pondering over the episode.
It was the same thing that had happened to him in the city; it was the
thing that would be happening to him all the time. He saw that however
wretched he might be with Corydon, he would always take her part against
the world. Whatever her faults might be, they were not such as the world
could judge. Rather would he make it the test of a person’s character,
that they should understand and appreciate her, in spite of her lack
of that superficial thing called culture--the ability to rattle off
opinions about any subject under the sun.
So it was that loyalty to Corydon held him fast. So her temperament was
his law, and her needs were his standards; and day by day he must become
more like her, and less like himself!
Section 4. He returned to the house, entering by the rear door. The baby
was lying in the room asleep, and out upon the piazza, he could hear
Corydon and Mrs. Channing. Corydon was speaking, in her intense voice.
“The trouble with me,” she was saying, “is that I have no confidence!
Other women are sure of themselves--they are self-contained, serene,
satisfied.”
“But why shouldn’t you be that way?” Thus Mrs. Channing.
“I aim too high,” said Corydon. “I want too much. I defeat myself.”
“Yes,” said the other, “but why--”
“It’s been the circumstances of all my life! I’ve been
defeated--thwarted--repressed! Everything drives me back into myself.
There is nothing I can _do_--I can only endure and suffer and wait. So
all the influences in my life are negative--
‘I was sick with the Nay of life--
With my lonely soul’s refrain!’”
“What is that you are quoting?” asked Mrs. Channing.
“It’s from a poem I wrote,” said Corydon.
“Oh, you write poetry?”
“I couldn’t say that,” was the reply. “I have no technique--I never
studied anything about it.”
“But you try sometimes?”
“I find it helps me,” said Corydon--“once in a great while I find lines
in my mind; and I put them together, so that I can say them over, and
remind myself of things.”
“I see,” said Mrs. Channing. “Tell me the poem you quoted.”
“I--I don’t believe you’d think much of it,” said Corydon, hesitating.
“I never expected anybody--
“I’d be interested to hear it,” declared her visitor.
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