Loved and lost : $b or, A deadly secret — John Shaqi
Loved and lost : $b or, A deadly secretClay, Bertha M.
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Loved and lost : $b or, A deadly secret
Clay, Bertha M.
Dime novels; England -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Popular literature
“According to your own account you were on the brink of it a little
while ago. What right have you to ask any woman to be your wife? And,
supposing she accepted you, what, then?” inquired Lady Gwendolyn, with
angry vehemence.
“Why, then, we should marry, I presume.”
“How could you?”
“I see no just cause or impediment, Lady Gwendolyn!”
“Then I am sorry for you, that is all. I can understand people’s doing
wrong from the evil impulse of the moment; but it must be a very bad
man indeed who would commit a deliberate fraud, and ruin the woman who
trusted in him.”
“I don’t understand why my marriage would have such terrible
consequences, Lady Gwendolyn. One would think that I was a monster in
human form.”
And then, in spite of himself, he smiled to think how completely Lady
Gwendolyn had turned the tables upon him. He had joined her, intending
simply to bid her adieu, in order that he might look once more on the
fatal beauty that had stolen his heart away, and if any conversation
did take place he certainly pictured himself as the accuser, whereas he
had done little else but defend himself, and had only been able to get
in his own complaints edgewise.
Decidedly Lady Gwendolyn understood the art, and also the advantage,
of carrying the war into the enemy’s country. And yet, though he had
seen her in the arms of another man, and knew her to be an unprincipled
coquette, how he yearned after her, his mad infatuation increasing as
he gazed, until he felt as if he could not give her up were she twenty
times worse than she was.
He drew near to her with a look in his eyes no woman can misunderstand
even when she sees it for the first time. His lips were trembling with
the eager, passionate words that flowed up from his heart; his face was
as white as death.
“Gwendolyn,” he said hoarsely, “you must despise me as much as I
despise myself, but I cannot let you go.”
The hour of her supreme triumph had come--the hour she had panted for,
and longed for even in her dreams. This man, who had resisted her so
long, was at her feet now, in spite of himself, and for one moment her
victory seemed very sweet.
Then a revulsion of feeling came over her, and she hated him as
intensely as she had loved him before. If he despised himself for
falling into her power, if he was only in love with her beauty and
would still win her for that when he deemed her unworthy of any finer
sentiment, her victory was no better really than a defeat.
She drew away from him quickly, and burst into a passion of tears.
“You are right,” she sobbed out; “I do despise you; but I despise
myself still more. How horribly I must have lowered myself to inspire
such a feeling as you have dared confess. At least, you might have
spared me the knowledge, Colonel Dacre, if only because I am of the
same sex as your mother.”
“Gwendolyn, you don’t understand me. I am asking you to be my wife.”
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