The whole interview had passed so rapidly that Ralph felt thoroughly
confused. Frank had left him no time to reply to his extraordinary
outburst, and indeed, had he done so, Ralph would hardly have known
what to say. He did not feel angry, and would have been ready enough to
apologise for however unintentionally, hurt or annoyed his hot-blooded
companion: though really it was difficult to see in what way he had done
so! As he walked on slowly his thoughts began gradually to emerge from
their bewilderment, and to take the only form by which it appeared to
him that the riddle could be explained.
Frank was ashamed of himself! He had gone too far with Miss Freer, and
at the last had dishonourably withdrawn. No wonder the mention of this
report put him in a passion. No wonder indeed. Ralph ground his teeth,
as for one passing moment he wished he were Marion’s brother. This
explained it all. Her altered looks, her variable spirits, her painful
agitation at the mention if Captain Berwick’s return. Poor little
governess! This then was the price she had to pay for her womanly
self-denial and honest independence of spirit. (For Ralph had gathered
from Cissy’s remarks that during her stay at Altes there had been no
positive necessity for Marion’s exertions, but that she had “too great
a notion of independence.”) It must have been that mother and sisters
of his! Looking down upon her because she was a daily governess. Looking
down on her.
“Oh,” thought Ralph to himself, “if only I could set ever thing at
defiance and brave the future, even now I feel as if I should like
to snatch her away from all those horrid people and devote my life
to making her happy. But,” and with the ‘but’ his mood changed, “she
doesn’t care for me. Oh, Frank Berwick, what a weak, contemptible fool
you are! For he did care for her—I am sure of that.”
But hardly had his reflections reached this point when they were
interrupted. Hasty steps behind him which his absorption had prevented
his hearing as they drew nearer, and in another moment there stood Frank
Berwick beside him. His face still flushed, but more now from eagerness
than annoyance, and with a look of resolution about it too.
“Severn,” he began abruptly, “I behaved like a fool just now; but I was
most intensely annoyed, as you will understand when you hear what I have
got to say. I want to tell you something. It’s rather a queer thing
to do, I know, but it seems to me we have all been playing at cross
purposes, and I shall feel better satisfied if I tell you. There is not
another man living, I don’t think, that I would trust, as I am going to
let you see I trust you.”
He stopped, rather awkwardly, for Ralph had not by glance or gesture
encouraged him to proceed. Now, however, he could hardly avoid saying
something.
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