“I trust I am not advising you badly, my dear boy. I can only tell you
what I think. It seems to me that if you and this young lady do really
care for each other, as I believe you do—as I and my poor little
Margaret cared for each other, fifteen years ago,” he said, with a
gentle smile, “in this case,” he went on, “I think you should, to some
extent, brave the future. The probability of your not surviving your
mother is small. And I cannot help feeling more sanguine than you appear
about the way she would act if she were once convinced your decision was
irrevocable. Lady Severn, I have good reason to know, is kind-hearted
and conscientious, though, I must allow, prejudiced; and, perhaps,
naturally so. You don’t think it would be well to make an appeal to her
before doing anything else?”
“No, I don’t,” said Ralph. “At present it could do no good, and might
do great harm. If I told her anything I must tell all, and imagine the
horrors of her name being bandied about and insulted by my mother and
Miss Vyse! For that girl hears everything. I have a dreadful idea that
her suspicions are already aroused. Besides I should feel myself so much
stronger to lay the case before my mother, if I felt I had something
else to fall back upon. It would prove to her that I was most thoroughly
in earnest. No, my first step must be to see my old chief.”
Just then their roads parted. They separated with a hearty shake of the
hand, and a few strong words of thanks from Ralph for his former tutor’s
sympathy and advice.
“You will let me know how it all ends, my dear Ralph,” said Mr. Price,
as he left him.
“Most certainly. But I shall see you again?”
“It is doubtful,” replied the tutor. Any day now the Countess may decide
on leaving Altes. And if you set off for England in a few days, we may
be away when you return.”
“I hope not,” said Ralph. And then he walked home quickly, trying to
arrange his plans in his mind.
“I should much like to be sure, quite sure, of what Berwick told me,”
he thought; “and yet I see no way of satisfying myself without risk
of committing her to more than at present I have a right to ask. But
I couldn’t endure to go about in an underhand way; prying into her
innocent thoughts and feelings. And on the other hand, I can’t endure
to think that she may now be suffering, through my apparent coldness.
Suffering, my poor little girl—and for me!”
At that moment he felt inclined to brave all, and rush off to Mrs.
Archer’s on the spot.
Thinking threw no light on the difficulty. All he could decide upon was
to make immediate preparations for another visit to England; and for the
rest to be guided by circumstances, and by his honest determination to
think first and most of her happiness.
Notwithstanding, however, all his misgivings and anxieties, the Ralph
Severn who ran lightly up the long stone staircase of No. 5, was a very
different being from the grave, careworn man who had slowly descended
those same steps a few hours previously.
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