“Mercy!” said Ralph, turning from the door-post on which he had been
leaning, and rising to his full height as he spoke. Standing right in
front of her, and with a strange change in his voice. “ ‘Mercy!’ you
ask? Yes child, I will have mercy. Mercy on you and on myself, who have
done nothing, either of us, deserving of this hideous torment. You are
‘married’ you tell me—married to another man—but I tell you, you are
not. That was a blasphemous mockery of a marriage! I am your husband, I,
and no other! You are mine, Marion, and no one else’s! My wife! my own!
Come away with me, child, now, this very moment, and have done at once
and for ever with this horrible night-mare that is killing me. For I
cannot lose you again! Oh, my God! I cannot!” And as he spoke, he tried
to draw her towards him, not gently, but roughly, violently almost, in
sore passion of anguish which was enraging him.
Hitherto, since he had begun to speak, Marion had allowed him to hold
her clasped hand in his. But now, as she felt the hold of his fingers
tighten, and as the full meaning of his wild, mad words broke upon her,
with a sudden movement she rose from the bench on which she was sitting,
and tore herself from his grasp, growing at the same moment as if by
magic, perfectly, icily calm.
But only for an instant did her instinct of indignation against him
last. One glance at the dark, passionate, storm-tossed face beside
her—so changed, so terribly, sadly changed in its expression from its
usual calm, gentle kindliness—and her mood softened. She laid her hand
trustingly on his arm.
“Ralph,” she said, “poor Ralph, hush! If you are for a moment weak,
I must be strong for both. This is terrible that has come upon us—so
terrible that just now I do not see that I can bear it and live. For
you know all my heart, and you can judge if it is not to the full as
terrible for me as for you.” (This she said in her innocent instinct of
appealing to his pity for her.) “You at least are alone—are bound by no
vows to another, and that other, alas, so good and kind. I had rather,
ten thousand times rather, he were hard and unloving and cruel! But
though just now I can see nothing else, this one thing I see plainly—you
must go Ralph, you must leave me now at once, and we must never, never
see each other again. There is just one little glimpse of light left in
the thought that hitherto we have neither of us done anything to forfeit
the other’s respect—unless indeed that deceit of mine?—but no,” she
added, glancing at his face, “I know you have not thought worse of me
for that. Do not let us destroy this poor little rag of comfort left us,
Ralph. Let me still think of you as good and brave—yes, as the best and
bravest. And do not tempt me, Ralph, to say at this terrible moment what
in calmer times might cause me shame and remorse to remember.” And she
raised her face to his with a very agony of appeal in the grey eyes he
loved so fervently.
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