Mr. Vere, the father of this boy and girl, was perhaps less to be blamed
than some parents, for the fact that his children did not regard him as
their friend. An extreme natural reserve of character and manner had,
in his case, been so augmented by the unhappy circumstances of his life,
that to his children from their earliest years, he had never appeared
otherwise than hard, forbidding, and utterly unsympathising. Yet in
reality he was a man of deep feeling, and capable of strong and lasting
attachments; but along with these healthy characteristics were to be
found in him a large amount of morbid weakness on certain points, and
a peculiarity which I can best describe as narrow-heartedness. The one
passion of his life had been his love for his wife, a lovely, silly,
mindless baby, whose early death was certainly not the bitterest
disappointment she caused him. Their carried life was short, but it
lasted long enough for the freezing, narrowing process to begin in the
husband’s heart. He lost faith in affection, or at least in his own
power of inspiring it. The want of breadth about him prevented his
seeing that though he had been so unfortunate as to make the one “grand
mistake,” an uncongenial marriage, it did not necessarily follow that
every other relation in life was, for him, to be in like manner a
failure. He made up his mind beforehand, that were he to allow himself
to seek for consolation in the love of his children, in that, too, he
would but be laying up fresh disappointment for himself. And therefore
he was weak and cowardly enough to stifle, so far as he could, the
natural outflowings of fatherly affection. He did not altogether succeed
in this, for his heart was still, in spite of himself, sound at the
core; but, alas, as time went on it proved no exception to that law of
our nature, by which all unused members gradually contract and wither.
From his children’s earliest years, as I said, Mr. Vere checked in
himself all outward demonstration of affection, and this, of course,
quickly reacted upon them. Little people are not slow to understand
when they and their innocent caresses are unsought, if not unwelcome.
Fortunately, however, for these poor little things, they had each other;
and the affection of two as honest, loving little hearts as ever beat,
refused vent in one direction, only flowed the more vehemently in the
remaining one. And to give the father his due, he certainly was not
unmindful or careless of their actual comforts and requirements. They
had everything to be desired for their health and happiness, except
their father’s love. As they grew older, time brought no improvement to
the state of matters. Extreme strictness, not to say severity, was the
basis of Mr. Vere’s theory of education. This, and the fact that he
never in the slightest degrees confided in his children, or appeared
to consider them as reasonable and intelligent companions, extended the
already wide gulf between them.
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