“‘Tis more grief than sickness, Miss. It’s sorrow is killin’ him. Any
one that saw him last year wouldn’t know him now; his hair is white as
snow, and his voice is weak as a child’s. Here we are now--here’s the
gate. It isn’t much of a garden, nobody minds it; and yonder, where you
see the light, that’s his honour’s room, beside the big tower there,
and you are to have the two rooms that my mistress lived in.” And, still
speaking, she led the way through a low arched passage into a small
clean-looking chamber, within which lay another with a neatly-arranged
bed, and a few attempts at comfortable furniture. “We did our best,
Miss, Sam and myself,” said Molly; “but we hadn’t much time, for we only
knew you was coming on Tuesday night.”
“It is all yery nice and clean, Molly. Your name is Molly, isn’t it?”
“Yes, Miss,” said she, curtseying, and deeply gratified.
“I want nothing better!” said Kate, as she sat down on the bed and took
off her bonnet.
“If you don’t need me now, Miss, I’ll go and bring you your tea; it’s
all ready in the kitchen.”
“Very well, Molly; leave it for me in the outer room, and I’ll take it
when I am inclined.”
Molly saw that she desired to be alone, and withdrew without a word; and
Kate, now free of all restraint, buried her face in the pillow and
wept bitterly. Never, till the very spot was before her--till the dark
shadows of the rugged rocks crossed her path, and the wild solitude of
the dreary island appealed to her, by the poor appearance of the people,
their savage looks, and their destitution--never till then had she fully
realised to her mind all the force of the step she had taken. “What have
I done! What have I done!” sobbed she, hysterically, over and over.
“Why have I left all that makes life an ecstasy to come and drag out an
existence of misery and gloom! Is this the fruit of all my ambition? Is
this the prize for which I have left myself, without one affection or
one sentiment, sacrificing all to that station I had set before me as
a goal? I’ll not bear it. I’ll not endure it. Time enough to come
here when my hopes are bankrupt, and my fortune shipwrecked. I have
youth--and, better, I have beauty. Shall I stay here till a blight has
fallen on both? Why, the very misery I came from as a child was less
dreary and desolate than this! There was at least companionship there!
There was sympathy, for there was fellow-suffering. But here! what is
there here, but a tomb in which life is to waste out, and the creature
feel himself the corpse before he dies?” She started up and looked
around her, turning her eyes from one object to the other in the room.
“And it is for this splendour, for all this costly magnificence, I am to
surrender the love of those humble people, who, after all, loved me for
myself! It was of _me_ they thought, for me they prayed, for my
success they implored the saints; and it is for this”--and she gazed
contemptuously on the lowly decorations of the chamber--“I am to give
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