them up for ever, and refuse even to see them! The proud old Sir Within
never proposed so hard a bargain! He did not dare to tell me I should
deny my own. To be sure,” cried she, with a scornful laugh, “I was
forgetting a material part of the price. I am a Luttrell--Kate Lnttrell
of Arran--and I shall be one day, perhaps, mistress of this grand
ancestral seat, the Abbey of St. Finbar! Would that I could share the
grandeur with them at once, and lie down there in that old aisle as
dreamless as my noble kinsfolk!”
In alternate bursts of sorrow oyer the past, and scornful ridicule of
the present, she passed the greater part of the night; and at last,
exhausted and weary with the conflict, she leaned her head on the side
of her bed, and, kneeling as she was, fell off to sleep. When she awoke,
it was bright day, the sea-breeze playing softly through a honeysuckle
that covered the open window, filled the room with a pleasant perfume,
and cooled her heated brow. She looked out on the scarcely ruffled bay,
and saw the fishing-boats standing out to sea, while on the shore all
were busy launching or stowing away tackle; the very children aiding
where they could, carrying down baskets, or such small gear as their
strength could master. It was life, and movement, and cheerfulness
too--for so the voices sounded in the thin morning air--not a tone of
complaint, not one utterance that indicated discontent, and the very
cheer which accompanied the sliding craft as she rushed down to the
sea seemed to come from hearts that were above repining. The scene was
better to her than all her self-arguings. There they were, the very
class she sprang from; the men and women like her own nearest kindred;
the very children recalling the days when she played barefooted on the
beach, and chased the retiring waves back into the sea. They were there,
toiling ever on, no hope of any day of better fortune, no thought of
any other rest than the last long sleep of all, and why should _she_
complain? That late life of luxury and splendour was not without its
drawbacks. The incessant watchfulness it exacted, lest in some unguarded
moment she should forget the part she was playing--and part it was--the
ever-present need of that insidious flattery by which she maintained
her influence over Sir Within, and, above all, the dread of her
humble origin being discovered, and becoming the table-talk of the
servants’-hall. These were a heavy price to pay for a life of luxurious
indulgence.
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