Authors, Swedish -- 19th century -- Biography; Lagerlöf, Selma, 1858-1940; Sweden -- Social life and customs -- 19th century
“I have wept for the lad every day since he went away,” continued the
poor woman. “If he’s there among ye why doesn’t he stand up and say so,
for I shouldn’t know him again.”
Silence.
The woman slowly went her way. To the first person she met afterwards
she related her experience.
“I thought until now I’d go out of my mind if my son did not come
back,” she said, “but now I thank my God that he’s not among those
skeletons!”
The militia-men rested a week at Mårbacka, and then went on, somewhat
strengthened.
But they had left the bloody flux in their wake. Everyone on the place
became desperately ill. All recovered save Grandmother’s two little
children, who were of too tender an age to resist the virulence of the
sickness.
When the two children lay in their coffins, Grandmother said to
herself: “If I had done like the others, if instead of harbouring those
men I had driven them away with stones, my little ones would have been
alive now.”
But as that thought crossed her mind, she remembered her vision of that
evening in the spring wherein the wolves carried off the children. “Our
Lord is not to blame,” she said. “He forewarned me.” The loss of the
children was not due to her act of mercy, but rather to her
thoughtlessness in not having taken proper precautions to guard them
against contagion.
When she realized that after all it was her own fault the children were
gone, her grief was overwhelming. “I shall never get over it,” she
said. “I can never be the same again.”
Her despair was increased by her fears for the husband--how would he
take the loss of their children? He had not been at home in several
months. The old despondency had perhaps come over him again, so that he
dared not come home. Where he was then she did not know; so could not
even send him word of what had happened. Anyway, he would surely regard
the death of his children as a visitation from God for his marrying
her, and never come back. She was not so certain but he would be right
in this. It were best perhaps they never met again.
All on the place were much concerned about her. What to do to help her
they did not know. But Long-Bengt, who was the oldest of the servitors,
was not afraid to act sometimes on his own responsibility. He set off
for Kymsberg one morning in quest of the master. This time he was not
two whole days getting back. He actually found the Paymaster of the
Regiment and stated his errand. The words were hardly out of his mouth
before the master ordered a fresh horse put to the chaise. They drove
all night without a stop, and reached Mårbacka in the morning.
Now the husband was not glum and difficult when he came. He took his
wife tenderly in his arms, dried her tears, and spoke loving words of
comfort to her. It seemed as if then for the first time, when seeing
her so crushed and sorrowful, was he able to reveal the full depth of
his love.
“And I thought I should lose you, too!” she said.
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