Americans -- France -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Married people -- Fiction
He waited the next day till his usual hour of calling--the late
afternoon; but he learned at the door that the mistress of the house was
not at home. The servant offered the information that she was walking
a little way in the forest. Longmore went through the garden and out
of the small door into the lane, and, after half an hour’s vain
exploration, saw her coming toward him at the end of a green by-path. As
he appeared she stopped a moment, as if to turn aside; then recognising
him she slowly advanced and had presently taken the hand he held out.
“Nothing has happened,” she said with her beautiful eyes on him. “You’re
not ill?”
“Nothing except that when I got to Paris I found how fond I had grown of
Saint-Germain.”
She neither smiled nor looked flattered; it seemed indeed to Longmore
that she took his reappearance with no pleasure. But he was uncertain,
for he immediately noted that in his absence the whole character of her
face had changed. It showed him something momentous had happened. It was
no longer self-contained melancholy that he read in her eyes, but grief
and agitation which had lately struggled with the passionate love of
peace ruling her before all things else, and forced her to know that
deep experience is never peaceful. She was pale and had evidently been
shedding tears. He felt his heart beat hard--he seemed now to touch
her secret. She continued to look at him with a clouded brow, as if his
return had surrounded her with complications too great to be disguised
by a colourless welcome. For some moments, as he turned and walked
beside her, neither spoke; then abruptly, “Tell me truly, Mr. Longmore,”
she said, “why you’ve come back.” He inclined himself to her, almost
pulling up again, with an air that startled her into a certainty of what
she had feared. “Because I’ve learned the real answer to the question I
asked you the other day. You’re not happy--you’re too good to be happy
on the terms offered you. Madame de Mauves,” he went on with a gesture
which protested against a gesture of her own, “I can’t be happy, you
know, when you’re as little so as I make you out. I don’t care for
anything so long as I only feel helpless and sore about you. I found
during those dreary days in Paris that the thing in life I most care for
is this daily privilege of seeing you. I know it’s very brutal to tell
you I admire you; it’s an insult to you to treat you as if you had
complained to me or appealed to me. But such a friendship as I waked up
to there”--and he tossed his head toward the distant city--“is a potent
force, I assure you. When forces are stupidly stifled they explode.
However,” he went on, “if you had told me every trouble in your heart it
would have mattered little; I couldn’t say more than I--that if that
in life from which you’ve hoped most has given you least, this devoted
respect of mine will refuse no service and betray no trust.”
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