"If you want to survive this, you've got to love that. You've got to
get off a plane, meet people, fall in love with them, treasure every
moment, and know that moments are all you have. Then you get on a
plane again and you love them forever. Otherwise, every new meeting is
sour because you know how soon it will end. It's like starting to say
your summer-camp goodbyes before you've even unpacked your
duffel-bag. You've got to embrace -- or at least forget -- that every
gig will end in a day or two."
Perry took a moment to understand this, swallowed a couple times, then
nodded. Lots of people had come in and out of his factory and his ride
over the years. Lester came and went. Suzanne was gone. Tjan was gone
but was back again. Kettlebelly was no longer in his life at all, a
ghost of a memory with a great smile and good cologne. Already he was
forgetting the faces in Boston, the faces in San Francisco. Hilda
would be a memory in a month.
Hilda patted his hand. "I have friends in practically every city in
America. My folks campaigned for stem cells up and down every red
state in the country. I even met superman before he died. He knew my
name. I spent ten years on the road with them, back and forth. The
Bush years, a couple years afterward. You can live this way and you
can be happy, but you've got to have right mind.
"What it means is you've got to be able to say things to people you
meet, like, 'You're really nice,' and mean it, really mean it. But
you've also got to be cool with the fact that really nice people will
fall out of your life every week, twice a week, and fall back into it
or not. I think you're very nice, too, but we're not gonna be a
couple, ever. Even if we slept together tonight, you'd be gone
tomorrow night. What you need to ask yourself is whether you want to
have friends in every city who are glad to see you when you get off
the plane, or ex-girlfriends in every city who might show up with
their new boyfriends, or not at all."
"Are you telling me this to explain why we're not going to sleep
together? I just figured you were dating that guy, Ernie."
"Ernie's my brother," she said. "And yeah, that's kind of why I'm
telling you this. I've never gone on what you might call a date. With
my friends, it tends to be more like, you work together, you hang out
together, you catch yourself looking into one another's eyes a couple
times, then you do a little circling around and then you end up in
your bed or their bed having hard, energetic sex and then you sort out
some details and then it lasts as long as it lasts. We've done a
compressed version of that tonight, and we're up to the sex, and so I
thought we should lay some things on the table, you should forgive the
expression."
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