Jane Webster was trying to reconstruct something. In darkness she was
trying to feel her way along the face of a wall. The wall had little
sharp points sticking out that hurt the palm of the hand. If one
followed the wall far enough one came to a lighted place. Perhaps the
wall was studded with jewels, put there by others, who had groped their
way along in the darkness.
Her father had gone away with a woman, with a young woman, much like
herself. He would live with the woman now. Perhaps she would never see
him again. Her mother was dead. In the future she would be alone in
life. She would have to begin now and make a life of her own.
Was her mother dead or had she just been having terrible fancies?
One was plunged suddenly down from a high safe place into the sea and
then one had to try to swim, to save oneself. Jane’s mind began playing
with the thought of herself as swimming in a sea.
During the summer of the year before she had gone with some young men
and women on an excursion to a town facing Lake Michigan, and to a
resort near the town. There was a man who dived down into the sea from
a tall tower, that had been stuck far up into the sky. He had been
employed to dive in order to entertain the crowd but things had not
turned out as they should. The day, for such an affair, should have
been bright and clear, but in the morning it began to rain and in the
afternoon it turned cold and the sky, covered with low heavy clouds,
was heavy and cold too.
Cold gray clouds hurried across the sky. The diver fell down from
his high place into the sea, in the presence of a small silent crowd,
but the sea did not receive him warmly. It awaited him in a cold gray
silence. Looking at him, falling thus, sent a cold shiver through the
body.
What was the cold gray sea toward which the man’s naked body fell so
swiftly?
On that day, when the professional diver had taken his leap, Jane
Webster’s heart had stopped beating until he had gone down into the sea
and his head had reappeared on the surface. She was standing beside a
young man, her escort for the day, and her hands clutched eagerly his
arm and shoulder. When the diver’s head reappeared she put her head
down on the young man’s shoulder and her own shoulders shook with sobs.
It had, no doubt, been a very silly performance and she had been
ashamed of it later. The diver was a professional. “He knows what he is
about,” the young man had said. Every one present had laughed at Jane
and she had become angry because her escort had laughed too. Had he but
had sense enough to know how she was feeling at the moment, she thought
she would not have minded the others laughing.
* * * * *
“I’m a great little swimmer in seas.”
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