It would not do to stop now. There was a time came when one must not
stop. He threw his arms out, took her protesting and crying into his
arms.
VIII
“Why must one commit rape, rape of the conscious, rape of the
unconscious?”
John Webster sprang up from beside his daughter and then whirled
quickly about. A word had come out of the body of his wife sitting
unobserved on the floor behind him. “Don’t,” she said and then, after
opening and closing her mouth twice, ineffectually, repeated the
word. “Don’t, don’t,” she said again. The words seemed to be forcing
themselves through her lips. Her body lumped down there on the floor
had become just a strangely misshapen bundle of flesh and bones.
She was pale, of a pasty paleness.
John Webster had jumped off the bed as a dog, lying asleep in the dust
of a roadway, might have leaped out of the path of a rapidly moving
vehicle.
The devil! His mind was jerked back into the present swiftly,
violently. A moment before he had been with a young woman on a hillside
above a wide sun-washed valley and had been making love to her. The
love-making had not been a success. It had turned out badly. There
had been a tall slender girl who had submitted her body to a man, but
who had been all the time terribly frightened and beset by a sense
of guilt and shame. After the love-making she had cried, not with an
excess of tenderness, but because she had felt unclean. They had walked
down the hillside later and she had tried to tell him how she felt.
Then he also had begun to feel mean and unclean. Tears had come into
his own eyes. He had thought she must be right. What she said almost
every one said. After all man was not an animal. Man was a conscious
thing trying to struggle upward out of animalism. He had tried to
think everything out that same night as he, for the first time, lay in
bed beside his wife, and he had come to certain conclusions. She was
no doubt right in her belief that there were certain impulses in men
that had better be subjected to the power of the will. If one just let
oneself go one became no better than a beast.
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