Cornwall (England : County) -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Vacations -- Fiction
He knew as he faced the wind and the night air that in some obscure way,
as yet only very vaguely realised, he had won the moral victory over
himself. He had no doubt about what he must do; he had no doubt at all
about the kind of life that he must lead afterwards. He saw that he had
been given something very precious to keep—his _vie sacré_, as it
were—and he knew that everyone had this _vie sacré_ somewhere, that it
was something that they never talked about, something that they kept
very closely hidden, and that it was when they had soiled it, or hurt
it, or even perhaps for a time lost it, that they were unhappy and saw
life miserably and distrusted their fellow beings. He had never had it
before; but he had got it now, his precious golden box, and it would
make all life a new thing.
But there was still his body. He had never felt so strong in his life
before; the blood raced through his veins, he felt as though he would
like to strip himself naked and fight and battle with anything furious
and strong.
His sense of weariness had left him; he felt that he must have some vent
for his strength immediately or he would commit some crime. For a few
minutes he stood there and let the wind blow about his forehead. The
storm had passed away. The sky was a very dark blue, and the stars had a
wind-blown, misty look, as they often have after a storm. Their gold
light was a little watery, as though they had all been dipped in some
mysterious lake somewhere in the hills of heaven before they were out in
the sky. In spite of the wind there was a great silence, and the bird on
some dark wind-bent tree continued to sing. The trees on either side of
the lane rose, dark walls, against the sky. Then in the distance there
were cries, at first vague and incoherent, almost uncanny, and then,
coming down the lane, he heard the bleating of innumerable sheep. They
passed him, their bodies mysteriously white against the dark hedges;
they pressed upon each other and their cries came curiously to him,
hitting the silence as a ball hits a board; there were very many of them
and their feet pattered away into distance. They seemed to him like all
the confused and dark thoughts that had surrounded him all these weeks,
but that he had now driven away. His head was extraordinarily clear; he
felt as though he had come out of a long sleep.
The lights were beginning to come out in the town as he entered it. It
must be, he thought, about eight o’clock, and Morelli had probably
returned from Truro. It had not occurred to him until now to think of
what he was going to say to Morelli. After all, there wasn’t really very
much to say, simply that his daughter was gone and that she would never
come back again, and that he, Maradick, had helped her to go. It hadn’t
occurred to him until now to consider how Morelli would probably take
his share in it. He wouldn’t like it, of course; there would probably be
some unpleasantness.
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