Cornwall (England : County) -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Vacations -- Fiction
“Jim, I know you meant it seriously. I know you mean it seriously now.
But there isn’t much time; and after all, there isn’t much to say. We’ve
arranged it all before. We were to have this night, weren’t we, and
then, afterwards, we’d arrange to go abroad or something. Here we are,
two modern people, you and I, looking at the thing squarely. All our
lives we’ve lived stupidly, dully, comfortably. There’s never been
anything in the very least to disturb us. And now suddenly this romance
has come. Are we, just because of stupid laws that stupid people made
hundreds of years ago, to miss the chance of our lives? Jim!”
She put one hand across towards him and touched his knee.
But he, looking her steadily in the face, spoke without moving.
“Wait,” he said. “Stop. I want to ask you a question. Do you love
me—really, I mean? So that you would go with me to-morrow to Timbuctoo,
anywhere?”
For an instant she lowered her eyes, then she said vehemently, eagerly,
“Of course, of course I do. You know—Jim, how can you ask? Haven’t I
shown it by coming here?”
But that was exactly what she hadn’t done. Her coming there showed the
opposite, if anything; and indeed, at once, in a way that she had
answered him, he had seen the truth. She might think, at that moment,
quite honestly that she loved him, but really what she wanted was not
the man at all, but the expression, the emotion, call it what you will.
And he saw, too, exactly what the after-results would be. They would
both of them in the morning postpone immediate action. They would wait a
few weeks. She would return to her husband; for a little, perhaps, they
would write. And then gradually they would forget. She would begin to
look on it as an incident, a “romantic hour”; she would probably sigh
with relief at the thought of all the ennui and boredom that she had
avoided by not running away with him. He, too, would begin to regard it
lightly, would put it down to that queer place, to anything and
everything, even perhaps to Morelli; and then—well, it’s no use in
crying over spilt milk, and there’s no harm done after all—and so on,
until at last it would be forgotten altogether. And so “the
unforgiveable sin” would have been committed, “the unforgiveable sin,”
not because they had broken social laws and conventions, but because
they had acted without love—the unforgiveable sin of lust of the flesh
for the sake of the flesh alone.
After her answer to his question she paused for a moment, and he said
nothing; then she went on again: “Of course, you know I care, with all
my heart and soul.” She said the last three words with a little gasp,
and both her hands pressed tightly together. She had moved her chair
closer to his, and now both her hands were on his knee and her face was
raised to his.
“Then you would go away with me to-morrow anywhere?”
“Yes, of course,” she answered, now without any hesitation.
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