Catholics -- United States -- Fiction; Fathers and daughters -- Fiction; Nuns -- Fiction; West (U.S.) -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
Mariquita did not want to be indoors; outside, here on the tilted
prairie, she was alone and not lonely. The tilt of the vast space around
her showed chiefly in this--that eastward the horizon was visibly lower
than at the western rim of the prairie. The prairie was not really flat;
between her and both horizons there lay undulations, those between her
and the western rising into _mesas_, which, with a haze so light as only
to tell in the great distance, hid the distant barrier of the Rocky
Mountains, whose foothills even were beyond the frontiers of this State.
She knew well where they were, though, and knew almost exactly beyond
which point of the far horizon lay Loretto Heights, beyond Denver, and
the Convent.
Somehow the coming of these two new units to the range-life had pushed
the Convent farther away still. But Mariquita's thoughts never rested in
the mere memories hanging like a slowly fading arras around that
long-concluded convent life. What it had given her was more than the
memories and was hers still.
As to the mere memories, she knew that with slow but increasing pace
they were receding from her, till on time's horizon they would end in a
haze, golden but vague and formless. Voices once clearly recalled were
losing tone; faces, whose features had once risen before the eye of
memory with little less distinctness than that with which she had seen
them when physically present, arose now blurred like faces passing a
fog. Even their individuality, depending less on feature than
expression, was no longer easily recoverable.
She had been used to remember this and that nun by her very footsteps;
now the nuns moved, a mere group in one costume, soundlessly, with no
footstep at all.
Of this gradual loss of what had been almost her only private possession
she made no inward wishful complaint; Mariquita was not morbid, nor
melancholy. The operation of a natural law of life could not fill her
with the poet's rebellious outcry. To all law indeed she yielded without
protest, whether it implied submission without inward revolt to the mere
shackles of circumstance, or submission to her father's dominance; for
it was not in her fashion of mind to form hypothesis--such hypothesis,
for instance, as that of her father calling upon her to take some course
opposed to conscience. Though her gaze was turned towards the point of
the horizon under which the Convent and its intimates were, it was not
simply to dream of them that she yielded herself.
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