Thus did Mark imbibe his taste for the ideal, and thus was his mental
growth fashioned by the eccentric physician. His moral training, too,
was not overlooked by this teacher, but the code inculcated was a simple
one, and merely this: "Be just. There is but one virtue--justice,"
asserted Dr. Wattletop; "men resort to makeshifts, such as generosity,
or charity, but they are but confessions of their shortcomings in
respect to justice. If men were not unjust, there would be no need of
generosity, or charity, and forgiveness would be either uncalled for, or
a crime."
There was doubtless a deal of the stoic in these teachings, but it was
on such philosophy that Mark was nourished.
* * * * *
As for his boyish passion for Edna Heath, that grew apace, but
accompanied with the bitter remembrance that the sympathy she had shown
him was prompted simply by commiseration. He was made none the less
unhappy also, by noticing that since the eventful party Edna was not as
cordial as formerly, but inclined to be distant; for the little beauty
thought, perhaps, that she had been too pointed in her sympathy and
desired, like older maidens, to set matters aright by an excess of
reserve in the future. Very soon after this, however, she was sent to a
seminary at Burlington, and during an interval of several years made but
short and infrequent visits home. In this way the intercourse between
the two gradually became less familiar, until now, Edna having attained
young lady-hood, it was formal, and restricted to what is called a
bowing acquaintance. Mark finally imagined he detected an intention on
her part to repel him, and met it by assuming an attitude of
corresponding hauteur. Still, the secret passion burned within his
breast with steady fervor. It was his greatest joy to see her, although
he never did so without those bitter words recurring to him: _You ought
to be thankful you are not lame as he is, and ought to pity him_. Each
word a thorn pressed to the quick! Meaning to be kind, how cruel she had
been! How much sharper those words had stung than the mean taunt of her
brother! _that_ he could forgive and forget, for it came from one he
despised, but could he ever forgive or forget the wound inflicted by her
expressions of pity? Nothing but a complete and voluntary retraction on
her part could compensate for that, and he resolved to toil with energy,
and patience--to strain nerve and brain--to undergo, and brave
everything until he had achieved distinction enough to excite her
admiration, and wonder that she could ever have deemed him an object of
compassion. Ridiculous, self-tormenting resolutions these will appear to
common sense; yet were they but the natural impulses of a proud,
sensitive, and we may add rather conceited youth, full of the illusions
of life, and pushing every sentiment to extremes.
V.
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