But as animals are said to have an eye for
spirits, children have an eye for souls, which is far rarer than an eye
for beautiful surfaces.
Mr. Grubb began by loathing Alisa, then patiently suffered her, then
pitied, then respected, then loved her. Mrs. Grubb seldom saw her, and
objected to nothing by which she herself was relieved of care. So Lisa
grew to be first a familiar figure in the household, and later an
indispensable one.
Poor Mrs. Bennett finally came to the end of things temporal. ‘Dying is
the first piece of good luck I ever had,’ she said to Mr. Grubb. ‘If it
turns out that I’ve brought a curse upon an innocent creature, I’d rather
go and meet my punishment half-way than stay here and see it worked out
to the end.’
‘“In my Father’s house are many mansions,”’ stammered Mr. Grubb, who had
never before administered spiritual consolation.
She shook her head. ‘If I can only get rid of this world, it’s all I
ask,’ she said; ‘if the other one isn’t any better, why, it can’t be any
worse! Feel under the mattress and you’ll find money enough to last
three or four years. It’s all she’ll ever get, for she hasn’t a soul now
to look to for help. That’s the way we human beings arrange things,—we,
or the Lord, or the Evil One, or whoever it is; we bring a puzzle into
the world, and then leave it for other people to work out—if they can!
Who’ll work out this one? Who’ll work out this one? Perhaps she’ll die
before the money’s gone; let’s hope for the best.’
‘Don’t take on like that!’ said Mr. Grubb despairingly,—‘don’t! Pray for
resignation, can’t you?’
‘Pray!’ she exclaimed scornfully. ‘Thank goodness, I’ve got enough
self-respect left not to pray!—Yes, I must pray, I _must_ . . . Oh, God!
I do not ask forgiveness for him or for myself; I only beg that, in some
way I cannot see, we may be punished, and she spared!’
And when the stricken soul had fled from her frail body, they who came to
prepare her for the grave looked at her face and found it shining with
hope.
It was thus that poor little Alisa Bennett assumed maternal
responsibilities at the age of ten, and gained her sobriquet of ‘Marm
Lisa.’ She grew more human, more tractable, under Mr. Grubb’s fostering
care; but that blessed martyr had now been dead two years, and she began
to wear her former vacuous look, and to slip back into the past that was
still more dreadful than the present.
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