It was thus that heaven began to dawn on poor Marm Lisa. At first only a
physical heaven: temporary separation from Atlantic and Pacific; a chair
to herself in a warm, sunshiny room; beautiful, bright, incomprehensible
things hanging on the walls; a soft gingham apron that her clumsy fingers
loved to touch; brilliant bits of colour and entrancing waves of sound
that roused her sleeping senses to something like pleasure; a smile
meeting her eyes when she looked up—oh! she knew a smile—God lets love
dwell in these imprisoned spirits! By-and-by all these new sensations
were followed by thoughts, or something akin to them. Her face wore a
brooding, puzzled look, ‘Poor little soul, she is feeling her
growing-pains!’ said Mistress Mary. It was a mind sitting in a dim
twilight where everything seems confused. The physical eye appears to
see, but the light never quite pierces the dimness nor reflects its
beauty there. If the ears hear the song of birds, the cooing of babes,
the heart-beat in the organ tone, then the swift little messengers that
fly hither and thither in my mind and yours, carrying echoes of sweetness
unspeakable, tread more slowly here, and never quite reach the spirit in
prison. A spirit in prison, indeed, but with one ray of sunlight shining
through the bars,—a vision of duty. Lisa’s weak memory had lost almost
all trace of Mr. Grubb as a person but the old instinct of fidelity was
still there in solution, and unconsciously influenced her actions. The
devotion that first possessed her when she beheld the twins as babies in
the perambulator still held sway against all their evil actions. If they
plunged into danger she plunged after them without a thought of
consequences. There was, perhaps, no real heroism in this, for she saw
no risks and counted no cost: this is what other people said, but
Mistress Mary always thought Marm Lisa had in her the stuff out of which
heroes and martyrs are made. She had never walked in life’s sunny
places; it had always been the valley of the shadow for her. She was
surrounded by puzzles with never any answer to one of them, but if only
she had comprehended the truth, it was these very puzzles that were her
salvation. While her feeble mind stirred, while it wondered, brooded,
suffered,—enough it did all these too seldom,—it kept itself alive, even
if the life were only like the flickering of a candle. And now the
candle might flicker, but it should never go out altogether, if half a
dozen pairs of women’s hands could keep it from extinction; and how
patiently they were outstretched to shield the poor apology for a flame,
and coax it into burning more brightly!
‘Let the child choose her own special teacher,’ said Mistress Mary; ‘she
is sure to have a strong preference.’
‘Then it will be you,’ laughed Helen.
‘Don’t be foolish; it may be any one of us and it will prove nothing in
any case, save a fancy that we can direct to good use. She seldom looks
at anybody but you,’ said Edith.
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