Married or single?, Vol. 1 (of 3)Croker, B. M. (Bithia Mary)
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Married or single?, Vol. 1 (of 3)
Croker, B. M. (Bithia Mary)
English fiction -- Irish authors
“I should have walked home in the snow that night; I should have taken
you to the Wolfertons’ house, and telegraphed for her; I should have
gone to the parish clergyman--done anything but what I did, and which
led to my dragging you into such a pit as this!” with an inclusive wave
of his hand and a glance round the mean little attic. “But it won’t be
for long now,” he added in a lower voice.
“Oh, Laurence,” she almost screamed as she seized his arm, “why are
you telling me such terrible things, when we have a little gleam of
hope at last? It is cruel--cruel of you. You couldn’t mean that, after
all we have gone through together--that when we are approaching smooth
water--you--you would leave me!”
And here she suddenly broke down and burst into tears, for, alas! she
had an agonizing inward conviction that there was truth in what he
said. How pale and thin and wasted he looked! No one would recognize
him who had seen him last year, with his shorn head, gaunt cheekbones,
and sunken eyes; and she had a heart-breaking feeling that it was not
mere actual illness, nor the dregs of that terrible fever, that were
to blame for this, but that cruel, pitiless, ferocious wolf called
WANT. He was dying of the lack of mere necessaries, and she, miserable
woman, was powerless to procure them; and for this she laid down her
head and wept as if her heart would burst--her passionate sobbing
fairly frightened Laurence. Madeline’s tears were rarely seen; Madeline
was always bright, cheery, almost gay, at the very worst of times; and
now came a reaction, and she was weeping as he had never seen any one
weep before.
“Don’t, Maddie, don’t,” he whispered, feebly stroking her hair; “you
will be better without me, though you don’t think so now. You are
young--only nineteen--many bright days may be in store for you. I will
leave you contentedly, if your father has come home. The greatest
horror I have ever known will be lifted from my mind. You don’t know,
dearest, what torments have racked me as I lay awake through the
long, dark nights, listening to the clocks striking hour after hour,
and wondering what would become of you? Now Providence has answered
the question; your father will give you and the child a home. There,
Maddie, there, don’t; I can’t bear to see you cry like this; and I--I
may get over it, and---- And now, you see, you have awakened the baby!”
as a shrill, querulous cry from the next room interrupted what he was
about to say.
The maternal instinct thus roused, he hoped that her tears would cease,
as he was powerless to arrest them. And Madeline completely broken
down--Madeline, who was always so brave, who had come out in a new
light under the scorching flames of the furnace of affliction--was a
sight that completely unmanned him.
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