Adventure stories; Crime -- Fiction; Detective and mystery stories; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction
Mary Regan stood in the dusk of her sitting-room, holding apart the
velvet hangings of a window, and gazing far down at the quadruple line
of motorcars which at this twilight winter hour moves in slow lockstep
between Thirty-third and Fifty-ninth Streets; and as she vacantly gazed
upon the world’s greatest parade of pleasure vehicles, part of her
mind was wondering about her approaching interview with Clifford--and
part of her mind, in subconscious preparation for this meeting, was
automatically reviewing, and checking-up, and reswearing allegiance
to some of the decisions she had reached concerning herself and the
course she had chosen. She was somewhat excited; but she felt sure of
herself--very sure!
During the six months she had been away, she had studied, or believed
she had, her own nature most carefully, and also her immediate
interests, and also the bolder reachings of her ambition. She had
considered these matters, not sentimentally,--she hated sentiment,
she told herself,--but with cool brain, and with no fear to admit the
truth. To be sure there had been a swift seizure and possession of her
by emotion when she and Clifford had kissed that summer dawn long ago
in Washington Square; and now and again this emotional element had
arisen in her with appealing energy, but her cool intelligence had
always controlled such impulses. What did life offer with a police
official who was on the square? Nothing! At least nothing that she
cared for or dreamed of. Honest police officials never got anywhere.
And as for Clifford, marriage with him would ruin such career for him
as might be possible. It would never do--not for either of them.
What she wanted was altogether different. She _knew_, for she had
analyzed herself with the apartness of a scientist. Her former attitude
toward crime, acquired through a girlhood spent with those cynical
gentlemen of the world, her father and her Uncle Joe,--that attitude
to be sure was now changed; at least such intentions as formerly she
had had she now knew to be quiescent; Clifford had influenced her
to this extent. But though the criminal impulses given her by her
training were gone, the worldly attitude and instincts begotten by that
training still remained. She believed herself a worldling; and more,
she believed herself a competent worldling. She believed she had no
illusions about herself. The things in life that were worth while--so
in her confident youthfulness she decided--were luxury, admiration, the
pleasures that money could buy. And these things she believed she could
win.
This much, in her retreat, she had already decided before Jack Morton
had appeared in the quiet countryside. The coming of Jack, with the
opportunities represented by his amiable person, had made her even more
decided.
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