He spoke with a certain sad quietness, very different from his old
clamant vehemence. Arthur could not but notice it, and he found
himself looking with a kind of wonder on the face of his friend. The
face seemed to have taken on a new aspect. It was paler and thinner,
with an increased loftiness of brow; there were new lines round the
mouth, deeper shadows underneath the eyes, and the lock of hair that
fell across the forehead was almost white; but the most striking thing
was that a certain subtle fire that once lit the face had disappeared.
The keen prophetic look was still there, but it was veiled, dulled, no
longer edged with expectancy; a prophet's face, but no more the face of
a prophet who saw the morning. And in the slow, quiet voice there was
an accent of wearied hope, almost of despair.
Vickars caught the look of wonder on Arthur's face, and said, "Ah! I
see you are surprised that I should speak so tolerantly. I used to say
that I could make the world a paradise if I were sole despot of the
world for a single year, didn't I?
"And now?"
"Now I see that I spoke foolishly. The world is not so easily
transformed."
"Is it you that are transformed?"
"Yes. I used to hate men for being evil; and the only weapon I had to
attack them with was hatred. I have come to see that hatred is the
wrong weapon. You must love men, if you are to change them. You must
love even the vile, and those most bitterly opposed to you. You cannot
even understand them unless you love them. I hated your father once,
because I did not understand the kind of temptations he endured. Now I
have come to understand these temptations, and I find it in my heart to
pity him."
"O Vickars!" cried Arthur. "You are teaching me a hard lesson. I also
have hated.... I have never made allowances. I have indulged
contempt, I have behaved like the worst kind of prig. But do you know,
since this happened ... well, how can I put it? ... I have seen my
father in a new light. And now it seems to me a wonderful thing that
he is as good as he is."
"Yes, that is precisely true, and not only of your father, but of all
men. The truly divine thing about man is that he is always better than
you might expect him to be. It is not the depravity of human nature
that is its outstanding feature--it is the goodness. And you find the
goodness in the very heart of the depravity, like the pearl in the
oyster. But I'm preaching--it's an old habit of mine: forgive me."
"It's a sermon I much needed," said Arthur humbly.
"We all need it, and those who think themselves the best need it most."
And then, with a touch of the old whimsical humour, he added, "Whenever
you hear a man preaching very earnestly against a vice, you may be sure
he has it. I am a case in point."
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