He felt a need of solitude. He had many thoughts that cried aloud for
readjustment. He stepped out in the blither air, and took his way to
Hampstead Heath. Soon the narrow streets were left behind, the long
hill rose above him, and his feet trod the furze-clad slopes, little
altered since the day when Roman legions camped upon their crests, and
eighteenth-century highwaymen concealed themselves among their hollows.
He walked far and fast, meditating much on life. It seemed a wonderful
thing to be alive, where so many generations of men had fought and
perished, to be for a little time sole possessor of a world that had
cast off such myriads of tenants; and there came to him, with an almost
painful wonder, the sense of the richness of his opportunity. He would
make his own life something worthy. It was true, as his father had
said, that he started at a point of vantage not given to every one. By
so much that he started higher, he must soar higher, go farther. But
in the midst of all his exultant thoughts there intruded his father's
terse picture of life as a big strong beast only to be mastered by bit
and whip and bridle. And at that thought the tide of exaltation began
to leave him. He walked more slowly, became listless, was conscious of
weariness. It no longer seemed an easy and a rapturous thing to live;
life rose before him as a menace.
In the early afternoon he came to the Spaniards' Inn, and entered it.
Coming from the brilliant air into the dim room of the inn, he did not
at first recognise a man already seated there, finishing a frugal meal
of bread and cheese and ale. The man was tall, with somewhat stooping
shoulders; his face was long and bearded, his forehead high, with thin
dark hair, his eyes dark and penetrating. He wore a flannel shirt with
a silk tie of some indeterminate colour akin to dull crimson. He held
a book in one hand, and read as he ate.
As Arthur entered the room he looked up.
"You don't know me, I suppose," he said genially. "But I know you by
sight at least. My name is Hilary Vickars."
So this was Hilary Vickars, of whom he had heard Scales speaking at the
deacon's tea. Now that he looked at him more closely he recognised him
at once. Among the crowd of ordinary faces in the church, that face
had stood out with a singular distinctness. It was a face at once
grave and composed, sad and humorous; the face of a man who had striven
much and suffered much, but had retained through all a certain
vivacity, which was distinct from gaiety while including it. And all
these qualities seemed to rest upon a deeper quality of composure, so
that the final impression was of a man who through suffering had won
his way to some secret knowledge which gave him an air of gentle
authority.
"I have often wished to know you," said Arthur.
"And I you."
"Why should you wish to know me?"
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