"Oh! I assure you," he said, "even gardeners have their dreams. Mine,
as I said, was Oxford, for I spent my youth within sight of her spires,
within sound of her bells. I believed I could become a scholar;
indeed, I still believe my old belief not quite foolish. I spent all
my money on grammars and dictionaries which I did not know were
obsolete, got to know the classics in a crude fashion, and went on
imagining that some day I might enter the University. Of course it was
all an absurd dream; you do not need to be told that. My first real
discovery in life was that learning is the privilege of wealth. That
led me to some other discoveries of the same nature, the sum of which
was that the great mass of mankind are born disinherited, and that I
was one of them. It hurt me dreadfully at the time, but in the long
run it was the making of me. It set me studying life as it is, not as
it once was in ancient times. And the more I studied it, the more I
came to admire common men and women, until at last I was glad that I
belonged to them. It is a great thing to know just to whom you belong;
no man does any kind of good work till he knows that."
"But you are not a common man," Arthur interrupted. "You are a writer."
"Oh! I have some aptitudes that are not common, no doubt; I am
immodest enough to think that. But if I am a writer, I write of common
people. It is common life that interests me, the virtues, vices,
trials, heroisms, debasements, and nobilities of plain people. But I
did not mean to talk about myself, and you must forgive me."
"There is nothing to forgive. What you say deeply interests me. My
father said a thing to-day about life which has been in my thoughts a
good deal, and you make me recall it. By the way, do you know my
father?"
"Yes, I know him."
He spoke the words with a certain caustic accent which did not pass
unnoticed.
"You mean you do not like him," Arthur replied with a flash of anger.
"No, I don't say that. I know him merely as a type. But what did he
say?"
"He said life was a hard business, in which one was sure to be hurt;
that it was a big strong beast which could only be subdued by whip and
bridle."
"An excellent definition. Life is strong and cruel and hard. Men who
really live soon discover that."
"Have you found it so?"
"Yes. And I've seen the big strong beast tread thousands down--the
people who haven't got the whip and bridle."
He spoke the words with remarkable intensity. They were flashed from
him rather than spoken. Then, as if ashamed of his display of feeling,
he rose from the table, and said in a matter-of-fact tone, "The evening
is coming on. I must be going."
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