From that hour began a real intimacy with Vickars which had a great
influence over his own character. Hitherto he had admired the man
without understanding his real aims. Now he began to comprehend these
aims. Vickars had spoken truly when he described himself as a fanatic,
but his fanaticism was so wise and so gentle that it provoked love
rather than antagonism. And it had also a certain restful and
melancholy quality which was infinitely touching. He did not expect to
be heard, and he knew that he would not prevail; yet he would at any
time have suffered martyrdom with cheerful courage. Many men have
found it not difficult to die for a faith which they believed would
move on to triumph by the way of their Golgotha; but Vickars was
prepared to die for a faith which he knew must fail. He had no
illusions; he saw all things in a clear bleak light of actual fact,
knew the world ill-governed and man incurably foolish, but not the less
he was willing to sacrifice himself for convictions which the world
called absurd. His speech about what he would do were he dictator of
the world was not mere rhetoric; it was his genuine belief that life
was at bottom a very simple business, and that mankind missed available
happiness merely by perverse repudiation of the simplest principles of
happiness. So he gave himself in hopeless consecration to the
exposition of these principles; and if the martyr is great who can die
because he sees the crown and palm waiting for him in the skies, how
much greater is he who can die expecting no reward?
It was only by degrees that Arthur came to recognise these qualities in
Vickars. What he did not recognise at all was that the influence of
Vickars was slowly loosening all the moorings that held him to his own
former life. Although he had not said it openly, he knew now that he
could not join his father in the business. He was careful to frame no
accusation of his father even in his own most secret thoughts, but he
knew that their ways lay apart. This life his father loved of scheming
and of toiling, with its empty wealth and emptier social rewards, had
no attraction for him. It was too crude, too barbarous; and beside it
the life of Vickars, in its noble poverty, shone like a gem. He did
not judge his father, but he judged unmercifully the society in which
he moved, especially the church society, with its pettiness of
interest, its lack of idealism, and its honour for smooth hypocrites
like Scales; and this set him wondering why Vickars went to church at
all. He asked him the question one day.
"I go for Clark's sake principally," he replied. "He is the one
pulpit-man in the neighbourhood who has a real glimpse of truth, and I
feel it my duty to support him."
"But what about the Church itself?"
"You mean, what do I think of it?"
"Yes."
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