The same spirit met Arthur everywhere. He found the newspapers pouring
adulation at the feet of men against whom every kind of crime might be
alleged; but they had "made good," and therefore were unassailable. He
remarked a cheerful disregard of morals, which was less disrespect than
light-hearted ignorance; and the most curious thing of all was that the
very men who talked as though honesty, faith, and trust did not exist
were themselves men of amiable virtues. He found himself quickly and
quietly appraised; a keen eye ran over him, reading his deficiencies,
and his doom was pronounced with a smile. An insulting word would have
been less difficult to bear than that disconcerting smile; but these
arbiters of his destiny never failed in courtesy, nor in the sort of
kindness which finds its outlet in easy generosity. They would invite
him to lunch, introduce him to clubs, allow him to believe that he had
made real progress in their friendship and esteem; but when it came to
the enunciation of some plan by which he might earn his bread, they
became strangely silent. They "gave him a good time," to use another
cheerful American phrase--to do so appeared to be part of a definite
system of international courtesy; but they were at no pains to conceal
their sense that he was a virtual incompetent.
Again and again, in the still hours of the morning, he recounted the
rebuffs and misadventures of the previous day with wonder and
misgiving. The irony of his position was laughable, if it had not been
so serious. He had been told by the eloquent Legion to go out and
rise; and certainly it appeared, by the light of conspicuous examples,
that he was in a land where multitudes of men had risen from the
lowliest to the loftiest positions with a singular celerity. Yet no
one believed him capable of rising, nor indeed did he himself venture
to assert it with any vigour of conviction. And in such moments there
came to him the recollection of his father. For the first time he
realised with some approach to adequacy the vital elements in his
father's character. He told himself that had his father been flung
suddenly into the streaming tides of New York, he would not have lived
through twenty-four hours without getting his feet securely planted on
the rung of some ladder that led to eminence. And then, with a sudden
heat of resolution, he would tell himself that he was his father's son,
and he would rise and go forth once more to hammer on the barred gates
of chance.
"To-day I will not fail," he would cry.
And when the day closed, recording nothing but defeat, he would still
cry, "To-morrow I must succeed," and endeavour to believe it.
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