Australia -- Fiction; Family life -- Fiction; Married women -- Fiction; Mothers -- Fiction
By the time that Bobby was born--we had then been five years
married--all the romance of youth seemed to have departed from us, dear
as we were to one another. Our talk when we met was of butchers and
bakers, rents and rates, the wants of the house and how they could be
met or otherwise; and we had to shout sometimes to make ourselves heard
above the noise of crying babies and the clack of the sewing-machine. It
was exactly like the everyday, commonplace, perfunctory, prosaic
married life that we saw all around us, and to the level of which we had
thought it impossible that _we_ should ever sink.
Tom says, no. On second thoughts I do too. The everyday marriage was not
dignified with those great moments of welcome and farewell, those tragic
hours of the night when the husband was fighting the wind and sea and
the wife listening to the rattle of the windows with her heart in her
mouth--such as, for the time being, uplifted us above all things tame
and petty. And what parents, jogging along in the groove of easy custom,
can realize the effect of trials such as some of those that our peculiar
circumstances imposed on us, in keeping the wine of life from growing
flat and stale. The same thing happened at Bobby's birth as at Harry's,
Tom was perforce away, and I might have died alone without his knowing
it. Three months later the little one took convulsions and was given up
by the doctor; and the father again was out of reach, and might have
come home to find his baby underground. Never shall I forget those
times of anguish and rapture--and many besides, which proved that
nothing in the world was of any consequence to speak of compared with
our value to one another.
But we forget so soon! And the little things have such power to swamp
the big ones. They are like the dust and sand of the desert, which cover
everything if not continually dredged away. And all those little debts
and privations and schemings and strugglings to make ends meet that
would not meet, were enough to choke one. Especially as Bobby cut his
teeth with more trouble than any baby I ever had, and as I, what with
one thing and another, grew quite disheartened and out of health, so
that I never knew what it was not to feel tired.
The ignoble sorrows of this period--which I hate to think of--seemed to
culminate on the morning of the day that I am going to tell of--at the
end of which they were so joyfully dispelled.
Bobby had cried incessantly through the night, so that I had only slept
in snatches, just enough to make me feel more heavy and yawny than if I
had not slept at all. I dragged myself dispiritedly out of bed, dying
for the cup of tea which did not appear till an hour after its time, and
was then brought to me rank and cold from standing, with no milk in it.
"I forgot to put the can out last night," was Maria's cheerful
explanation, "and I waited in hopes that the milkman would come back,
but he didn't. And, please'm, what shall I do about the children's
breakfast?"
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