"Look here, Miss Carroll," he said quietly, "let's get down to brass
tacks. For eleven years you have lain on your back, allowing yourself
to be waited on, coddled, wrapped in cotton wool. You have had the
companionship of your father, who is the finest man in the world, but
whose whole life is wrapped up in you, and who has sacrificed that
life to your whims and your desires. Your father was never meant to be
buried down here; not with that personality and fine brain. Think of
the doors which should be open to him and which your illness has
closed,--travel, society, the exploration of places and people,
instead of a rather pretty, very narrow, Connecticut _rut_! You have
had Sarah--sentimental to a degree under a rocky exterior, ready and
anxious to work her fingers to the bone to please you. You have had an
entire village at your beck and call; have dispensed justice and
advice from your bed like Royalty; and you have thrived on it, my dear
lady, thrived on the adoration and the sacrifice, and on your own
martyrdom. Now, I am here solely to give you a chance to repay your
father and all the others for their love and care and coddling. Do you
realize that your father is a comparatively young man? That, by tying
him to your bedside you have narrowed his life down until it consists
of this room, this house, this tiny village? It's up to you to give
something to your father. It may cost you pain. But I wonder if you
have any idea of what you have cost him in heartache? Are you willing
to make the effort, if only for his sake?"
No one in all my life had ever spoken to me like that! I was so hurt,
so outraged, so bewildered, it seemed as if I just couldn't live a
minute longer, with that cool, cutting voice in my ears.
"You--you--brute!" I said, choking, "It's not fair! Do you mean to
tell me that I am selfish and unkind? That I don't love my father?
That I am a useless, worthless hypochondriac?"
He smiled.
"Perhaps I wouldn't put it quite so strongly," he suggested
courteously.
I shut my hands hard under the bedclothes and held my head very high.
"Very well," I told him, rather viciously, "I will do all you say, if
Father and Doctor MacAllister are agreed."
I could feel the red spots burning on my cheeks. And in my mind I was
saying, over and over, like a child, "I'll show you! _I'll show you!_"
I think I almost hoped I should die--just to make him sorry. And it
was so hard to keep the tears back. I wouldn't cry. I _wouldn't_.
I cried.
Suddenly, his arm was around me, and his voice, so changed, so
immeasurably gentle, was saying, very close,
"You poor little kid!"
"I hate you!" I said, at that.
The arm tightened; then dropped. Dr. Denton rose.
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