She had not been thinking of Fanshawe, nor of any one, when he joined
her suddenly; her thoughts had been all vague, full of that soreness
which was almost a relief from the heavy stupor of her grief. She had
seemed to herself, not suffering actively, but stupid in sadness; sad,
sad down to the bottom of her heart; a state of mind not without a
certain repose in it, which this other sensation of being wounded and
injured shot across, now and then, like a thrill of life. But it seemed
very natural to her when Fanshawe came to her side, more natural even
than if it had been Uncle Charles. He held out his arm, and she took it
only half consciously, and with a kind of faint pleasure allowed him to
lead her to the edge of the cliff, where the sea-line was visible, with
the Isle of May rising well out of the waters, and the twinkling lights
along Comlie shore marking out the length of the little town. Her heart
was overwhelmed with this profound and gentle sadness; and yet there was
a pleasure in it, too.
“Miss Heriot,” said Fanshawe; “I want to have you a little while to
myself, to-night. This is no place for me any longer. I must go away.”
“It is no place for any of us,” said Marjory, instinctively adopting him
into the number of those who belonged to her. They were so few now.
But he took no advantage of this inference. He took it for granted,
simply as she did. Perhaps he pressed her hand a little closer to his
side; but if so, the action was involuntary.
“No,” he said, “it is no place for you. This piece of impertinence
to-night--”
“I never thought of it,” said Marjory; “it was nothing; that could not
make any difference; but we must go.”
“It is selfish of me to say anything,” he said; “but it is I who must go
first--not the same man who came here a month ago, Miss Heriot; just a
month--though it might be an hour, or it might be a year. It has
separated my life into two pieces. May I write to you after I have
managed to take myself away?”
“Surely,” she said, in her gentlest tone.
“And will you write to me? I have no right to ask it; but you
are--different, somehow. You know how little I am good for. I don’t
mean to make any professions to you now--to say you have made me better.
Perhaps I am past making better. I should like to try, first; but if you
would write now and then, just three words--”
“Certainly I will write,” she said, looking frankly in his face. “How
much you have been to us all this terrible time! Do you think I can ever
forget it? And it is not only that we owe you a day in harvest--as we
Scotch folk say--but people cannot feel with each other as we have done,
and then cease and forget each other. Certainly I will write; it will be
one of my pleasures.”
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