commenting, without any responsibility. No privilege could have been
more delightful to him than this; and when he had now and then returned
for a few days to his own house, he had been, as it were, a banished
man. To be sure if he went to his own house now, he could take the only
remaining children of the family with him, and make a home for himself
by their means; but this brought in the element of responsibility which
he feared, and of which up to this moment he had kept clear. No wonder
that Mr. Charles closed his portfolios hurriedly, and sat down in his
chair with a sigh. If only any means could be thought of, any device
fallen upon, for compromising the matter, and keeping things as they
were.
Marjory, strangely enough, was infinitely less sensitive. Though she had
no other home, and had never contemplated another--though it was
impossible to her to realize the fact that she was no longer mistress of
Pitcomlie, yet the possibility of change affected her much less
strongly. Her whole being seemed to be dulled and slower of perception.
She sent away the servants who came to her as usual for orders, and felt
no pain. She even arranged her books and her papers for going away,
without any sharp sense of the hardship of leaving her home. She had no
particular feeling of any kind. Life seemed to be running low in her,
and sometimes grief plucked at her heart; but for other emotions, she
did not seem to have any. The thing she felt most was, that she missed
something. What was it? Something she had been used to had slid from
her. There was a vague want which she could not, and perhaps did not,
wish to identify. Fanshawe had gone away that morning. She had been
moved by his leave-taking, almost more than she thought seemly in her
circumstances. She had a strong feeling of what was fit and natural, and
the curious vague excitement with which his last looks and words filled
her, seemed strangely out of place, and even wrong. She repressed the
feeling with a strong hand; but she did not suspect that the blank sense
of inability to feel anything which had crept over her could be
connected with that repression in any way. She was dull, dull to the
depths of her heart and to the tips of her fingers. Nothing seemed to
affect her. As for the little vexations of the household, the
transference of her powers, these moved her no more than pin-pricks. She
was quite ready to have gone away, and would not have felt it. When she
was called downstairs by an intimation that Miss Jean was seen coming up
to the great door to visit the family, she obeyed the call without any
particular sentiment. Matilda and her sister were both in the
drawing-room when Marjory went in, and Miss Jean, leaning upon her cane,
in her new “blacks,” to which she had added another fold of crape for
each new death, was standing in the middle of the room, looking at them.
Matilda had not budged from her sofa. She had nodded, and said, “How
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