“Tom!” she said anxiously; “I hope I could be faithful to my trust. Tell
me what it is?”
“Not I!” said Tom, laughing. “No, no, Miss May; I am not going to give
you the whiphand over me. I can trust myself best. I am getting well,
thank Heaven; and I’ll pick up my tangled threads. It is not a bad
phrase that, either. Lord, what a lot of tangled threads I seemed to be
leaving last night!”
What could Marjory say? She held his hand between hers and patted it
softly, and kissed it with her heart full. It was not like a sick man’s
hand, white and wasted. It was brown and muscular, and strong, capable
of crushing hers, had he wished; and yet lay somewhat passively embraced
by her slender fingers, as if--like the tide ebbing slowly from the
shore, the strength had begun to ebb away.
“However, it’s well to be warned,” said Tom. “And, after all, I have
done less harm than you would think; nobody’s enemy but my own--as
people say. There’s no sensation I ever felt so curious as that one--of
thinking you’re dying. What an awful fool you’ve been, you say to
yourself; and now it’s no good. Struggle as you like, you can’t mend it;
you must just lie still and take what’s coming. I say, May,” he added,
with a sudden start. “Say something and be cheery, or I’ll get into the
dumps again.”
“Here’s the doctor, Tom,” said Fanshawe at the door.
Marjory rose and left the room quickly; she could not bear to meet the
eye of that final authority, whose glance seems to convey life or death.
She went and stood by her brother’s friend outside on the landing. It
was an old-fashioned winding oak staircase; and looking down they could
see the movements of the house; the waiters carrying in dishes to the
room where the father and uncle were breakfasting; and sometimes, when
the door opened, could hear the roll of their vigorous Northern voices.
Marjory stood with her hand on the oak balustrade, and looked wistfully
into Fanshawe’s face.
“Do you mean,” she said, “that there is no hope?”
He made a little gesture of pain and shook his head; his eyes looked
hollow, as if with tears. It was watching that had done it, but the
effect was the same.
“Then he ought to know; he must know!” said Marjory.
“To what good, Miss Heriot? Do you think God takes a man unawares like
that, to exact everything from him the same as if he had had long
warning? I am not so good as you; but I think better of my Maker than
that.”
“Mr. Fanshawe, this is no time to argue,” said Marjory, shivering; “but
my poor Tom ought to know.”
“It would kill him in a moment,” said Fanshawe, “the shock would be too
great; he has few enough moments to live. Go and pray for him, Miss
Heriot; that’s better than telling him. You are far more likely to be
paid attention to up yonder than fellows like poor Tom or me.”
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