Whatever comfort there might be in this, Fanshawe had it to console him
on his drive. He set out without seeing Marjory. When he found himself
driving not too quickly over those long country roads, on the business
which was not his, and realised the disagreeable mission he had
undertaken, he felt more weak and foolish than even Miss Jean had
represented him to himself. For what was all this? To commend himself to
Marjory? or because it was his nature and his fate? He was thoroughly
discontented with himself. Was he, who was thus driven hither and
thither by the will of others, who seemed to have no business of his own
in the world, but always and only the business of others--was he the
kind of man to step boldly out of his groove, to begin an independent
life, to ask any woman to share that existence? Nobody but those who are
over-persuadable, ready to be over-borne by the appeals made to them by
their more indolent neighbours, and to take upon their shoulders burdens
which are none of theirs, can understand how ashamed Fanshawe felt of
his own amiability in the business which he had at present in hand--or
how disgusted with the piece of work which Mr. Charles had basely thrust
upon his shoulders. As he approached Pitcomlie, he realized more and
more clearly how disagreeable it was. The sight of the house which had
filled so important a chapter in his life made his heart beat. There it
was that he had been roused out of the equanimity of his placid,
easy-going existence; and what good had that awakening done? None but to
make him a dissatisfied instead of a very contented, happy sort of
fellow; to show him the evil without opening the way to any remedy; to
fill him with longings after the unattainable without conferring upon
him the strength necessary to struggle and attain it. Marjory! the whole
place was full of her; the cliff, with its velvet coverlet of green
sward, round which so often by her side he had taken his “turn;” the
sundial by which he seemed to see her seated; the roofless old house,
against the grey walls of which he had watched her figure so often, and
which formed so fit a background for her; everything was full of
Marjory. The presence of her image there made it somehow more easy for
him to do what he was going to do. He marched into the well-known
drawing-room, almost regardless of the servant who rushed after, pulling
on his coat, to announce him. He saw with a certain sharp sense of
sarcastic pleasure somebody rise hastily from Mrs. Charles’s side, and
retire into a distant corner. Somebody--that sentimental personage
called Johnnie, whose presence had once made him furiously jealous. He
was ready to laugh now at the sight of this young man, whom he
recognised at once with that attraction of jealousy and dislike which is
as strong as love. Why was he so pleased to see Johnnie Hepburn start
disconcerted from Mrs. Charles’s side? It pleased him to think of
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