McClure's Magazine, Vol. 1, No. 6, November 1893 — John Shaqi
McClure's Magazine, Vol. 1, No. 6, November 1893Various
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McClure's Magazine, Vol. 1, No. 6, November 1893
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American literature -- Periodicals; Literature -- Periodicals
“Yes; perhaps thou didst again imagine I was on my deathbed?” she
replied, with bitter irony.
“It is not so, Sarah. I would have come of myself, only thou wouldst
not see my face.”
“I have seen it for twenty years--it is another’s turn now.”
He was silent.
“It is true all the same. I am on my deathbed.”
He started. A pang shot through his breast. He darted an agitated
glance at her face.
“Is it not so? In this bed I shall die. But God knows how many years I
shall lie in it.”
Her calm gave him an uncanny shudder.
“And till the Holy One, blessed be He, takes me, thou wilt live a daily
sinner.”
“I am not to blame. God has stricken me. I am a young man.”
“Thou art to blame!” Her eyes flashed fire. “Blasphemer! Life is sweet
to thee, yet perhaps thou wilt die first.”
His face grew livid.
“I am a young man,” he repeated tremulously.
“Thou dost forget what Rabbi Eliezer said: ‘Repent one day before thy
death’--that is to-day, for who knows?”
“What wouldst thou have me do?”
“Give up----”
“No, no,” he interrupted. “It is useless. I cannot. I am so lonely.”
“Give up,” she repeated inexorably, “thy wife.”
“What sayest thou? My wife! But she is not my wife. Thou art my wife.”
“Even so. Give me up. Give me Gett [divorce].”
His breath failed, his heart thumped at the suggestion.
“Give thee Gett!” he whispered.
“Yes. Why didst thou not send me a bill of divorcement when I left thy
home for this?”
He averted his face. “I thought of it,” he stammered. “And then----”
“And then?” He seemed to see a sardonic glitter in the gray eyes.
“I--I was afraid.”
“Afraid!” She laughed in grim mirthlessness. “Afraid of a bed-ridden
woman!”
“I was afraid it would make thee unhappy.” The sardonic gleam melted
into softness, then became more terrible than before.
“And so thou hast made me happy instead!”
“Stab me not more than I merit. I did not think people would be cruel
enough to tell thee.”
“Thine own lips told me.”
“Nay, by my soul,” he cried, startled.
“Thine eyes told me, then.”
“I feared so,” he said, turning them away. “When she--came into my
house, I--I dared not go to see thee--that was why I did not come,
though I always meant to, Sarah, my life. I feared to look thee in the
eyes. I foresaw they would read the secret in mine--so I was afraid.”
“Afraid!” she repeated, bitterly. “Afraid I would scratch them out!
Nay, they are good eyes. Have they not seen my heart? For twenty years
they have been my light. Those eyes and mine have seen our children
die.”
Spasmodic sobs came thickly now. Swallowing them down, she said: “And
she--did she not ask thee to give me Gett?”
“Nay; she was willing to go without. She said thou wast as one
dead--look not thus at me. It is the will of God. It was for thy sake,
too, Sarah, that she did not become my wife by law. She, too, would
have spared thee the knowledge of her.”
“Yes, ye have both tender hearts! She is a mother in Israel, and thou
art a spark of our father Abraham.”
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