“One evening that I still continued to pray, and audibly, as the monks passed my cell they said, “Do _you_ presume to pray? Die, desperate wretch,--die and be damned. Precipitate yourself into the infernal gulph at once, no longer desecrate these walls by your presence.” At these words I only redoubled my prayers; but this gave greater offence, for churchmen cannot bear to hear prayers uttered in a form different from their own. The cry of a solitary individual to God, sounds like profanation in their ears. They ask, Why do they not employ our form? How dare they hope to be heard? Alas! is it forms then that God regards? or is it not rather the prayer of the heart which alone reaches him, and prospers in its petition? As they called out, passing my cell, “Perish, impious wretch, perish,--God will not hear you,” I answered them on my knees with blessings,--which of us had the spirit of prayer? That night was one of trial I could no longer support. My frame was exhausted, my mind excited, and, owing to our frail nature, this battle of the senses and soul is never long carried on without the worst side remaining conqueror. I was no sooner laid down than the voice began to whisper. I began to pray, but my head swam round, my eyes flashed fire,--fire almost tangible, my cell appeared in flames. Recollect my frame worn out with famine, my mind worn out with persecution. I struggled with what I was conscious was delirium,--but this consciousness aggravated its horror. It is better to be mad at once, than to believe that all the world is sworn to think and _make_ you be so, in spite of your own consciousness of your sanity. The whispers this night were so horrible, so full of ineffable abominations, of--I cannot think of them,--that they _maddened my very ear_. My senses seemed deranged along with my intellect. I will give you an instance, it is but a slight one, of the horrors which----” Here the Spaniard whispered Melmoth(3). The hearer shuddered, and the Spaniard went on in an agitated tone. (3) We do not venture to guess at the _horrors_ of this whisper, but every one conversant with ecclesiastical history knows, that _Tetzel_ offered indulgences in Germany, even on the condition that the sinner had been guilty of the _impossible_ crime of violating the mother of God.