Memoir of Rev. Joseph Badger: Fourth EditionHolland, E. G. (Elihu Goodwin)
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Memoir of Rev. Joseph Badger: Fourth Edition
Holland, E. G. (Elihu Goodwin)
Badger, Joseph, 1792-1852
he never thinks of the warnings, instructions and prayers of his fond
parent in early days, and if he answers candidly he will say that they
often arise to his condemnation. The destinies of different men are
always teaching the worth of that holy wisdom which said, 'Train up a
child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not depart
from it.' In glancing back at the religion of my childhood, I find that
I was unconsciously Pharisaical, and leaned on the virtue of my prayers
and good works, although in the mixture there was a great degree of
sincerity and of heartfelt repentance. Although I was wholly ignorant,
probably, of the true love of God, I have always thought that, had I
then departed this life, I should have been happy."
I have alluded to the fact that Major Peaslee Badger was not a pietist,
and that in his family were no religious forms. At this time, and some
years after, his mind, revolting from the ordinary theological teaching
of the day, was inclined to a degree of general religious unbelief. The
minds of the children were not softened and controlled by religious
reverence, the absence of which is usually followed by a degree of
rudeness in regard to all religious form. But, following the child
Joseph to his own home, now that he had learned to love the voice of
prayer, we find him for a time determined in the way he had learned.
"On my return home," says he, "I missed my praying
grandfather and his religious instructions, which had been
frequent and impressive. I also missed my devoted
grandmother, by whose side, as the silence of night came
down, I had kneeled in prayer. Here I was lost, as our
family had no form of religious worship, and their minds
were on different subjects. For a long time I kept up my
form of prayer, but at last, from two reasons, fell from my
steadfastness, which were, that my school-mates none of
them ever prayed, but made much fun of me for this
practice; and my elder brothers, on knowing that I could
pray, used to coax and hire me to do so, and then subject
me to much laughter and derision for doing it. Here I left
my religious exercise, which had served to keep my mind in
a good moral state; and a reaction soon followed, that
found me a noted swearer, using the most extravagant
expressions that one of my age could easily command; a
course in which I was encouraged by my father's hired men,
who used to reward me with much praise and laughter. I well
remember, when eight years old, of being in the company of
several of Mr. Page's boys, who lived near my father's.
Amidst my swearing, they, being very steady, began to
rebuke me and to warn me of my danger. At first, I resisted
their discourse, but the force of their arguments was such
that I was compelled to yield. This restored me from my
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