Memoirs and resolutions of Adam Graeme of Mossgray, including some chronicles of the borough of FendieOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Memoirs and resolutions of Adam Graeme of Mossgray, including some chronicles of the borough of Fendie
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Her lips were parched--they would hardly meet to ask that
question--“No.” Lilias looked into the postmaster’s face wistfully
again; she would not hear the denial. “No, there were no letters for
Miss Maxwell.”
And immediately there fell upon her a dead calm; a dull slow pain of
quietness. She went out in her noiseless way, and glided down the street
like a shadow; her heart was sick--she could have seated herself by the
road-side, and wept out the slow tears that were gathering under her
eyelids, unconscious of any passers-by; but those who did pass by saw
only the grave, pale, pensive Lily of Mossgray. The fever was
over--there remained no present hope to distract her now, and she was
calm again.
And then she began to think, and laboured bravely to put away from her
those doubts and fears--but Lilias had not the impulsive energy of hope;
the elastic life, which can fight and wrestle with sorrow at its
strongest, was not in her; but she could do what the more buoyant could
not have done--she could wait--and knowing the time that she must wait,
she became calm.
She had intended going home, but as the shock softened, she changed her
purpose. She went to borrow hope from Helen Buchanan, in one of those
sudden yearnings for gentle company, with which sad hearts are sometimes
seized. In her hush and faintness she wanted to have some living thing
come in between her and her secret pain--she wanted to forget herself.
It was a holiday with Helen, and she was in a holiday mood,
withstanding, with her natural enthusiasm, the gloomy dogmas of Mrs
Gray, who was making a gracious call upon Mrs Buchanan. Mrs Buchanan did
not much like the melancholy lady; her sanguine gentle temper recoiled
from the sombre atmosphere which suited Mrs Gray; but she was Mrs
Whyte’s sister, and a “very respectable” acquaintance for Helen; so the
good mother submitted pleasantly.
“Are you ill, Lilias?” said Helen.
“No, Helen, it is nothing,” answered Lilias, gently. It was her
universal answer; the melancholy cloud was indeed very visible, but she
would not speak of the cause.
“My dear,” said Mrs Gray--she was very affectionate, this good doleful
woman--her very gloom increased her tenderness; “I am very much afraid
you are not taking sufficient care of yourself. I am sure you got damp
feet that day you were at the Manse, and Elizabeth would never think of
asking you to change them. Elizabeth is really very careless about damp
feet; she never heeds them herself--and I have known many a one get a
consumption with them. You are looking very white, my dear; you must
really take care.”
“I am quite well, Mrs Gray,” said Lilias; “perfectly well, I assure
you.”
Mrs Gray shook her head.
“Really, my dear, people never know. We are well to-day, and ill
to-morrow: it is a strange world.”
The proposition in this case being very abstract no one controverted it.
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