Memoirs and resolutions of Adam Graeme of Mossgray, including some chronicles of the borough of FendieOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Memoirs and resolutions of Adam Graeme of Mossgray, including some chronicles of the borough of Fendie
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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“I dare not tell you where we are going; indeed, I do not even know. You
know my father’s harsh and haughty pride; he says no one shall see our
poverty who has ever heard our name before. He might have lingered
longer, I believe, had I not told him of your generous offer; he took
it, as I fancied he would, with hard and bitter anger as a humiliation.
Yet thank you again, Adam, for thus cheering me, when the world indeed
was black enough around us.
“For yourself, what can I say, Adam Graeme? that you are not alone; but
alas! that is small consolation. Who can tell the appointed place which
this trial has in the lives of each of us, the appointed purpose for
which it has been sent? Adam, let us not look upon those wrecks of the
vain dreams we fancied true; all is not untrue, though these are; all is
not dark because these lights have failed. The feverish flashing of
these meteors is gone for ever; but there remains the sober, stedfast,
healthful light of day, the sunshine of heaven over all.
“Adam, let us awake; let us think no longer of those who have done us
wrong, but of Him who took so grievous wrong upon Himself for our
deliverance. It is not meet that the lives for which he paid so
wonderful a price should go down ignobly to the grave; do I need to say
more to you? do I need to do more than bid you arise, Adam, for His
sake, and do the devoir of a man, whether He send sunshine or gloom, a
dark day or a bright.
“I have only one word to say more; be careful, Adam: look well to your
words and deeds, lest the tempter take advantage of them to bring more
sin among us. I cannot venture to speak more plainly, but as you would
have others--others whom both of us have held very dear--preserved from
a deadly snare and sin, look heedfully to yourself, and let this wild
grief engross you no more.
“Write to Hew; and remember us all if we never meet again. Farewell,
Adam, and farewell.
“LUCY MURRAY.”
* * * * *
I was roused by Lucy’s letter, roused in some degree to remember my
manhood, and to think how I wasted it; but one struggle does not
overcome a grief like this. So I fell into a bitterly selfish mood,
contrasting her lot with mine--her cold womanlike submission with my
self-torture--and while I thought of the conclusion of her letter, with
a certain degree of idle languid wonder, I hugged my calamity closer to
my heart. No one had fallen from so bright a heaven into so blank an
earth as I; no one had ever equalled my misfortune, and who but myself
could comprehend my grief.
The wailing breeze suited me; I opened the window and leaned out,
resting my brow upon my hands. Heavy raindrops fell from the eaves upon
my unsheltered head--I did not heed them.
The sound of voices below arrested my attention; I remember wondering
that they did. No later than the day before they would have made me
shrink into myself jealously, in fear of contact with the speakers; now
I only remained still and listened.
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