Memoirs and resolutions of Adam Graeme of Mossgray, including some chronicles of the borough of FendieOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Memoirs and resolutions of Adam Graeme of Mossgray, including some chronicles of the borough of Fendie
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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“I cannot ask you. I feel that I cannot venture to beg of you this last
service; my heart fails me, when I remember how little I deserve any
grace at your hands. But you who have always been so kind and pitiful,
think of the misery of leaving her thus, alone in an evil world. If you
think I presume upon you, if you refuse to hear my prayer, I still must
plead it for her sake. Adam Graeme, will you protect my Lilias? Will you
forgive the sins we have done against you, and protect our child?”
There was more than this; there were the solemn farewells of the dying,
the pathetic earnestness of sorrowful repentance which bade God bless
him for ever. Except in his gray hairs, and in the strength which began
gently to fail and glide away, Adam Graeme was not old. The tide of his
strong and ardent feelings rushed back in that mighty revulsion, with
which the generous soul repents when it has blamed unjustly. He
remembered no injury Lilias had done him--he forgot the blight of his
youth, the solitude of his old age; he only felt that she was again, the
Lilias of his early dreams; and that the commands she laid upon him were
sacred and holy, a trust dearer than any other thing on earth.
And yet, a few brief days before, the old man had solemnly recorded his
resolution to shun their presence; to avoid all contact with Lilias and
her child, that the peace of his age might not be broken. Their very
name was pain to him; therefore he prayed that he might not cross their
path. He resolved to keep himself from any, the most distant intercourse
with them. In solemn earnest he formed this purpose, or rather he formed
it not: it was the instinctive necessity of his heart.
He remembered it now no more. It was not that he combatted his former
resolution; it was swept away before the resistless force of that
impulsive, generous heart, which in its solitary pain had built this
barrier about itself; and there was no inconsistency here. Had his ear
been dull to the voice of Lilias, had he hesitated to respond to her
appeal, then had Adam Graeme in his old age ceased to be consistent to
himself; for the same power which made him resolve to keep himself
separate and distant always from those whose very names had might enough
to move him still, asserted itself in the instant return of all the
ancient tenderness and honour, which painfully taken away from the
living Lilias, could flow forth unrestrained and unblamed upon the dead.
In the enclosure of the letter, a trembling hand had written the date of
the first Lilias’s death. It struck with a dull pang the heart to which
she was restored, yet only thus, he knew, could he have regained her.
That evening the Laird of Mossgray set out on a lonely journey. Before
his going, he warned his anxious housekeeper of the young guest he might
probably bring home with him. The intimation occasioned considerable
excitement in the little household.
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