Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and ArtistBernhardt, Sarah
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Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and Artist
Bernhardt, Sarah
Actors -- Biography; Bernhardt, Sarah, 1844-1923; Women -- Biography
For the summer I had taken a little house in the Villa Montmorency at
Auteuil. I went to the theater in a “little duke,” which I drove myself.
I had two wonderful ponies that Aunt Rosine had given to me, because
they had very nearly broken her neck by taking fright at St. Cloud at a
whirligig of wooden horses. I used to drive at full speed along the
quays, and in spite of the atmosphere brilliant with the July sunshine
and the gayety of everything outside, I always ran up the cold, cracked
steps of the theater with veritable joy, and rushed up to my
dressing-room, wishing everyone I passed “Good morning” on my way. When
I had taken off my coat and gloves I went on the stage, delighted to be
once more in that infinite darkness with only a poor light, a
_servante_, hanging here and there on a tree, a turret, a wall, or
placed on a bench, thrown on the faces of the _artistes_ for a few
seconds.
There was nothing more vivifying for me than that atmosphere full of
microbes, nothing more gay than that obscurity, and nothing more
brilliant than that darkness.
One day my mother had the curiosity to come behind the scenes. I thought
she would have died with horror and disgust.
“Oh, you poor child!” she murmured, “How can you live in that?” When
once she was outside again she began to breathe freely, taking long
gasps several times. Oh! yes, I could live in it, and I could scarcely
live _except_ in it. Since then I have changed a little, but I still
have a great liking for that gloomy workshop in which we joyous
lapidaries of art cut the precious stones supplied to us by the poets.
The days passed by, carrying away with them all our little disappointed
hopes, and fresh days dawned bringing fresh dreams, so that life seemed
to me eternal happiness. I played in turn in “Le Marquis de Villemer”
and “François le Champi.” In the former I took the part of the foolish
_Baroness_, an expert woman of thirty-five years of age. I was scarcely
twenty-one myself, and I looked seventeen. In the second piece I played
_Mariette_, and had great success.
Those rehearsals of the “Marquis de Villemer” and “François le Champi”
have remained in my memory as so many exquisite hours.
Mme. George Sand was a sweet, charming creature, extremely timid. She
did not talk much, but smoked all the time. Her large eyes were always
dreamy, and her mouth, which was rather heavy and common, had the
kindest expression. She had, perhaps, a medium-sized figure, but she was
no longer upright. I used to watch her with the most romantic affection,
for had she not been the heroine of a fine love romance!
I used to sit down by her, and when I took her hand in mine I held it as
long as possible. Her voice, too, was gentle and fascinating.
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