The idea that I was to be ordered about, without any regard to my own wishes or inclinations, put me into an indescribable rage. I rolled about on the ground, uttering the most heartrending cries. I yelled out all kinds of reproaches, blaming my mother, my aunts, and Mme. Fressard for not finding some way to keep me with her. The struggle lasted two hours, and, while I was being dressed, I escaped twice into the garden and attempted to climb the trees, and to throw myself into the pond, in which there was more mud than water. Finally, when I was completely exhausted and subdued, I was taken off, sobbing, in my aunt’s carriage. I stayed three days at her house, as I was so feverish that my life was said to be in danger. My father used to come to the house of my Aunt Rosine, who was then living at 6 Rue de la Chaussée d’Antin. He was on friendly terms with Rossini, who lived at No. 4 in the same street. He often brought him in, and Rossini made me laugh with his clever stories and comic grimaces. My father was as “handsome as a god,” and I used to look at him with pride. I did not know him well, as I saw him so rarely, but I loved him for his seductive voice and his slow, gentle gestures. He commanded a certain respect and I noticed that even my exuberant aunt calmed down in his presence. I recovered, and Dr. Monod, who was attending me, said that I could now be moved without any fear of ill effects. We had been waiting for my mother, but she was ill at Haarlem. My aunt offered to accompany us if my father would take me to the convent, but he refused, and I can hear him now with his gentle voice, saying: “No, her mother will take her to the convent. I have written to the Faures and the child is to stay there a fortnight.” My aunt was about to protest, but my father replied: “It’s quieter there, my dear Rosine, and the child needs tranquillity more than anything else.” I went that very evening to my Aunt Faure’s. I did not care much for her, as she was cold and affected, but I adored my uncle. He was so gentle and so calm, and there was an infinite charm in his smile. His son was as turbulent as I was myself, adventurous and rather hare-brained, so that we always liked being together. His sister, an adorable Greuze-like girl, was reserved and always afraid of soiling her frocks, and even her pinafores. The poor child married Baron Cerise and died during her confinement, in the very flower of youth and beauty, because her timidity, her reserve and narrow education had made her refuse to see a doctor when the intervention of a medical man was absolutely necessary. I was very fond of her, and her death was a great grief to me. At present, I never see the faintest ray of moonlight without its evoking a pale vision of her.