Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and ArtistBernhardt, Sarah
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Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and Artist
Bernhardt, Sarah
Actors -- Biography; Bernhardt, Sarah, 1844-1923; Women -- Biography
“My legs are being held.” I looked at him more attentively, while
Duquesnel asked for silence for M. De Chilly’s speech. I saw that his
fingers were grasping a fork desperately, the tips of his fingers were
white, the rest of the hand was violet. I took his hand, and it was icy
cold, the other was hanging down inert under the table. There was
silence and all eyes turned toward Chilly.
“Get up,” I said, seized with terror. He made a movement, and his head
suddenly fell forward with his face on his plate. There was a muffled
uproar, and the few women present surrounded the poor man. Stupid,
commonplace, indifferent things were uttered in the same way that one
mutters familiar prayers. His son was sent for, and then two of the
waiters came and carried the body away, living, but inert, and placed it
in a small drawing-room.
Duquesnel stayed with him, begging me, however, to go back to the poet’s
guests. I returned to the room where the supper had taken place. Groups
had been formed, and when I was seen entering I was asked if he was no
better.
“The doctor has just arrived and he cannot yet say,” I replied.
“It is indigestion,” said Lafontaine (_Ruy Blas_), tossing off a glass
of liqueur brandy.
“It is cerebral anæmia,” pronounced Tallien (_Don Guritan_) clumsily,
for he was always losing his memory.
Victor Hugo approached and said very simply:
“It is a beautiful kind of death.”
He then took my arm and led me away to the other end of the room, trying
to chase my sadness away by gallant and poetical whispers. Some little
time passed with this gloom weighing on us, and then Duquesnel returned.
He was pale, but had put on the attitude of a man of the world, and was
ready to answer all questions.
“Oh, yes, he had just been taken home. It would be nothing, it appeared.
He only needed rest for a couple of days. Probably his feet had been
cold during the meal.”
“Yes,” put in one of the “Ruy Blas” guests, “there certainly was a fine
draught from some chink under the table!”
“Yes,” Duquesnel was just replying to some one who was worrying him.
“Yes, no doubt, there was too much heat for his head.”
“Yes,” added another of the guests, “our heads were nearly on fire with
that wretched gas.”
I could see the moment arriving when Victor Hugo would be reproached by
all of his guests for the cold, the heat, the food, and the wine of his
banquet. All these imbecile remarks got on Duquesnel’s nerves. He
shrugged his shoulders, and drawing me away from the crowd said:
“It’s all over with him.”
I had had a presentiment of this, but the certainty of it now caused me
intense grief.
“I want to go,” I said to Duquesnel. “Would you kindly tell some one to
ask for my carriage?”
I moved toward the small drawing-room which served as a cloak room for
our wraps, and there old Mme. Lambquin knocked up against me. Slightly
intoxicated by the heat and the wine, she was waltzing with Tallien.
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