Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and ArtistBernhardt, Sarah
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Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and Artist
Bernhardt, Sarah
Actors -- Biography; Bernhardt, Sarah, 1844-1923; Women -- Biography
I made the sittings last as long as possible, for I felt that this
delicate spirit was imbuing me with her science of seeing into the
beyond, and often in the serious steps of my life I have said to myself:
“What would Emmy have done?... What would she have thought?...”
I was somewhat surprised one day by the visit of Adolphe de Rothschild,
who came to give me an order for his bust. I commenced the work
immediately. But I had not properly considered this admirable man—he had
nothing of the æsthetic, but the contrary. I tried, nevertheless, and I
brought all my will to bear in order to succeed in this first order of
which I was so proud. Twice I dashed the bust which I had commenced on
the ground, and after a third attempt I definitely gave it up,
stammering idiotic excuses which apparently did not convince my model,
for he never returned to me. When we met, in our morning rides, he
saluted me with a cold and rather severe bow.
After this defeat I undertook the bust of a beautiful child, Mlle.
Multon, a delicious little American whom later on I came across in
Denmark, married and the mother of a family—but still as pretty as ever.
Then I made a bust of Mlle. Hocquigny, that admirable person who was
keeper of the linen in the hospital cars during the war and who had so
efficiently helped me and my wounded at that time.
Then I undertook the bust of my young sister Régina, who had, alas, a
weak chest. A more perfect face was never made by the hand of God! Two
leonine eyes, shaded by long brown lashes—so long that they made a
shadow on her cheeks when she lowered them—a slender nose with delicate
nostrils, a tiny mouth, a willful chin and a pearly skin, crowned by
meshes of sun rays, for I have never seen hair so blond and so pale, so
bright and so silky. But this admirable face was without charm: the
expression was hard and the mouth without smile. I tried my best to
reproduce this beautiful face in marble, but it needed a great artist
and I was only a humble amateur.
When I exhibited the bust of my little sister, it was five months after
her death, which occurred after a six months’ illness full of false
hopes. I had taken her to my home, No. 4 Rue de Rome, to the little
_entresol_ which I had inhabited since the terrible fire which had
destroyed my furniture, my books, my pictures, and all my scant
possessions. This apartment in the Rue de Rome was small. My bedroom was
very tiny. The big bamboo bed took up all the room. In front of the
window was my coffin, where I frequently installed myself to learn my
parts. Therefore when I took my sister to my home I found it quite
natural to sleep every night in this little bed of white satin which was
to be my last couch, and to put my sister in the big bamboo bed under
the lace hangings. She herself found it quite natural, also, for I would
not leave her at night and it was impossible to put another bed in this
room. Besides, she was accustomed to my coffin.
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