When once I was at the theater I took refuge in the manager’s private office, in order to avoid Dr. Parrot’s anger. I was very fond of him and I knew how wrongly I was acting toward him, considering the inconvenience to which he had put himself in making the journey specially for me in response to my summons. I knew, though, how impossible it would have been to have made him understand that I felt really better, and that in risking my life I was really only risking what was my own to dispose of as I pleased. Half an hour later my maid joined me. She brought with her a letter from Dr. Parrot, full of gentle reproaches and furious advice, finishing with a prescription, in case of a relapse. He was leaving an hour later and would not even come and shake hands with me. I felt quite sure, though, that we should make it all up again on my return. I then began to prepare for my rôle in “L’Etrangère.” While dressing, I fainted three times, but I was determined to play _quand-même_. The opium that I had taken in my potion made my head rather heavy. I arrived on the stage in a semiconscious state, delighted with the applause I received. I walked along as though I were in a dream and could scarcely distinguish my surroundings. The house itself I saw only through a luminous mist. My feet glided along on the carpet without any effort, and my voice sounded to me far away, very far away. I was in that delicious stupor that one experiences after chloroform, morphine, opium, or hasheesh. The first act went off very well, but in the third act, just when I was to tell the _Duchess de Septmonts_ (Croizette) all the troubles that I, _Mrs. Clarkson_, had gone through during my life, just as I should have commenced my interminable story I could not remember anything. Croizette murmured my first phrase for me, but I could only see her lips move without hearing a word. I then said quite calmly: “The reason I sent for you here, madame, is because I wanted to tell you my reasons for acting as I have done, but I have thought it over and have decided not to tell you them to-day.” Sophie Croizette gazed at me with a terrified look in her eyes, she then rose and left the stage, her lips trembling, and her eyes fixed on me all the time. “What’s the matter?” everyone asked when she sank almost breathless into an armchair. “Sarah has gone mad!” she exclaimed. “I assure you she has gone quite mad. She has cut out the whole of her scene with me.” “But how?” everyone asked. “She has cut out two hundred lines,” said Croizette. “But what for?” was the eager question. “I don’t know. She looks quite calm.”