Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and ArtistBernhardt, Sarah
General
Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and Artist
Bernhardt, Sarah
Actors -- Biography; Bernhardt, Sarah, 1844-1923; Women -- Biography
I glanced in the direction of my porthole and saw a small steamer, black
with people, and then two other small boats no less laden than the first
one. The sun lighted up all these French flags and my heart began to
beat more quickly. I had been without any news for twelve days, as, in
spite of all the efforts of our good captain, _L’Amérique_ had taken
twelve days for the journey. A man had just come on deck, and I rushed
toward him with outstretched hands unable to utter a single word. He
gave me a packet of telegrams. I did not see anyone present, and I heard
no sound. I wanted to know something. And among all the telegrams I was
searching first for one, just one name. At last I had it, the telegram I
had waited for, feared and hoped to receive. Here it was at last. I
closed my eyes for a second, and during that time I saw all that was
dear to me and felt the infinite sweetness of it all. When I opened my
eyes again I was slightly embarrassed for I was surrounded by a crowd of
unknown people, all of them silent and indulgent, but evidently very
curious. Wishing to go away I took Mr. Jarrett’s arm and went to the
salon. As soon as I entered, the first notes of the “Marseillaise” rang
out, and our consul spoke a few words of welcome and handed me some
flowers. A group representing the French colony presented me with a
friendly address. Then M. Mercier, the editor of the _Courrier des
Etats-Unis_, made a speech, as witty as it was kindly. It was a
thoroughly French speech. Then came the terrible moment of
introductions. Oh, what a tiring time that was! My mind was kept at a
tension to catch the names. Mr. Pemb ... Madame Harth ... with the _h_
aspirated. With great difficulty I grasped the first syllable, and the
second finished in a confusion of muffled vowels and hissing consonants.
By the time the twentieth name was pronounced I had given up listening,
I simply kept on with my little _risorius de Santorini_, half closed my
eyes, held out mechanically the arm, at the end of which was the hand
that had to shake and be shaken. I replied all the time: “_Combien je
suis charmée, madame.... Oh, certainement!... Oh, oui!... Oh, non!...
Ah!... Oh! Oh!..._” I was getting dazed, idiotic—worn out with standing.
I had only one idea, and that was to get my rings off the fingers that
were swelling with the repeated grips they were having. My eyes were
getting larger and larger with terror, as they gazed at the door through
which the crowd continued to stream in my direction ... there to
shake.... My _risorius de Santorini_ must still go on working more than
fifty times ... I could feel the beads of perspiration standing out
under my hair—and I began to get terribly nervous. My teeth chattered
and I commenced stammering. “_Oh, madame!... Oh!... Je suis
cha—cha_....” I really could not go on any longer. I felt that I should
get angry or burst out crying ... in fact that I was about to make
myself ridiculous. I decided therefore to faint....
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account