Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and ArtistBernhardt, Sarah
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Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and Artist
Bernhardt, Sarah
Actors -- Biography; Bernhardt, Sarah, 1844-1923; Women -- Biography
I made a movement
with my hand as though it wanted to continue but could not.... I opened
my mouth, closed my eyes and fell gently into Jarrett’s arms. “Quick!
air!... A doctor.... Poor thing.... How pale she is! Take her hat
off.... Loosen her corset.... She doesn’t wear one. Unfasten her
dress....” I was terrified, but Félicie was called up in haste and my
_petite dame_ would not allow any _déshabillage_. The doctor came back
with a bottle of ether. Félicie seized the bottle.
“Oh, no, doctor ... not ether! When madame is quite well the odor of
ether will make her faint.”
This was quite true and I thought, it was time to come to my senses
again. The reporters were arriving and there were more than twenty of
them, but Jarrett, who was very much affected, asked them to go to the
Albemarle Hotel, where I was to put up. I saw each of the reporters take
Jarrett aside, and when I asked him what the secret was of all these
“asides” he answered phlegmatically: “I have made an appointment with
them from one o’clock. There will be a fresh one every ten minutes.” I
looked at him petrified with astonishment. He met my anxious gaze and
said:
“_Oh, oui, il était nécessaire!_”
On arriving at the Albemarle Hotel I felt tired and nervous, and wanted
to be left quite alone. I hurried away at once to my room in the suite
that had been engaged for me and fastened the doors. There was neither
lock nor bolt on one of them, but I pushed a piece of furniture against
it and then refused emphatically to open it. There were about fifty
people waiting in the drawing-room, but I had that feeling of awful
weariness which makes one ready to go to the most violent extremes for
the sake of an hour’s repose. I wanted to lie down on the rug, cross my
arms, throw my head back, and close my eyes. I did not want to talk any
more, and I did not want to have to smile or look at anyone. I threw
myself down on the floor and was deaf to the knocks on my door, and to
Jarrett’s supplications. I did not want to argue the matter, so I did
not utter a word. I heard the murmur of grumbling voices and Jarrett’s
words tactfully persuading the visitors to stay. I heard the rustle of
paper being pushed under the door and Mme. Guérard whispering to
Jarrett, who was furious.
“You don’t know her, M. Jarrett,” I heard her say: “if she thought you
were forcing the door open, against which she has pushed the furniture,
she would jump out of the window!”
Then I heard Félicie talking to a French lady who was insisting on
seeing me. “It is quite impossible,” she was saying. “Madame would be
quite hysterical. She needs an hour’s rest and everyone must wait!” For
some little time I could hear a confused murmur which seemed to get
farther away, and then I fell into a delicious sleep, laughing to myself
as I went off, for my good temper returned as I pictured the angry,
nonplused expression on the faces of my visitors.
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